stupidity

2012-01-30T03:19:00.001+08:00

Did you ever picture life like this?
No shooting star to grant your wish
Are you everything you hoped you'd be?
Or caught somewhere in between?
You dropped your nickle down a wishing well
And pray for luck to cast it's spell
To bring you closer to your dreams
That always seem just out of reach

You pray to God, the moment when
You feel the current pull you in

Try to keep your head above water
has never been harder
Even when it feels hopeless
You're gonna get through this
Head above water, gotta fight from going under
Even when it feels useless, to wish
You're gonna get through this

Have you ever felt like giving in?
Tried for hours but just can't win
Tell yourself you're not good enough
The struggle alone is just too much
No one's there to hear you scream
You gasp for air but cannot breathe
Did you ever think you'd see the day?
When you'd watch your life get washed away

You pray to God, the moment when
You feel the current pull you in

Try to keep your head above water
has never been harder
Even when it feels hopeless
You're gonna get through this
Head above water, gotta fight from going under
Even when it feels useless, to wish
You're gonna get through this

Did it ever hurt so bad?
That the thought of feeling lost would never end
Well you will think again
Try to keep your head above water
It's never been harder
When it feels hopeless
You're gonna get through this
Head above water, gotta fight from going under
Even when it feels useless to wish
You're gonna get through this

Head above water
Never been harder
Tryin' to keep your head above water
Has never been harder
You're gonna get through this
You're gonna get through this

Bangkok.

2011-12-31T00:56:00.001+08:00

Was in Bangkok over the Xmas hols;)

Hmm.. Nth much to talk about it honestly.
Can't say it's completely awesome or absolute hell.
Just a mixture of awesomeness n frustrations? Up n downs.. You know what I mean..
Nth can be perfect.
At least there used to be perfect times for me. But nvr anymore.

Idk. Lately I can get freaking pissed off. And i can't tell if it's my fault or others. Damn my temper.

But I gotta say...

There sure are much much more good-looking peeps over there. GYABO! After seeing(frequently)so many good-looking people leading normal lives, taking trains n walking around. It seems that it's really Singapore that lack pretty people. Pathetic. Hais.. No wonder singapore fans are so clingy eh? Cos Singapore really lack of it. And they know how to dress up too!! Most of the people in town really dress up. Not in the over-the-top lady gaga kinda way but looking or good and KAKOII!! Haha! unlike Singapore......... I shan't say more.

Best way to find yourself a handsome dude?

Migrate.

Another thing to comment on is that the beverages over there generally seem a tat too sweet. Eek. But they do taste good. If only it's nt that sweet. They have more interesting foodie in sg though *slurpslurp ^^

Hees:)

All in all.
I think I still prefer touring european countries?
Stress free fantasy~^^
*squeal.

2011-12-31T00:32:00.001+08:00

You are making me feeling all feisty inside.
Do you even know that?

Whenever it comes to this kinda situation it makes me all frustrated.
Why do I see myself sacrificing MY own family time to make way for yours?
Bloody hell.

If you really wanna see me,make it a point to free yourself and then come and see me.
I'm sick and tired of all these delays or last minute cancellations.
Isn't it dumb to put in all the effort and time planning and in the end you fucking forget about it all?

Sometimes,

Life do suck.

So,please,just show me I mean something to you.

It's Time.

2011-12-18T05:06:00.000+08:00

Yess, i know it's 5 in the morning.

haha.

I've been thinking of getting a better cam.
Something good enough and idiot-proof:)
So a point-and-shoot is most suitable.
Thus, was researching on cams since 1.
Initially was thinking of nana's Canon Powershot S95
But it IS a lil too ex eventhough the reviews are awesome

Anw i came across a Nikon that seems to be not bad too.
Of cos i believe not as awesome but pretty close
And it's 100 bucks cheaper.
& i guess Nikon is a good brand for cams, right?

So..
i'm aiming for a Nikon Coolpix S9100
hehes.
hope i can get it
And at a good price:)

New Change.

2011-12-13T20:09:00.000+08:00

Specially for the upcoming hols,

Rachel's got new RED tresses ;)

woohoo:)
say 'hi' to them, ya?
hees.

Feeling like a hayley.

Feels like a bomb before explosion.

2011-12-13T19:59:00.000+08:00

Next time I'll be braver,
I'll be my own saviour,
Standing on my own two feet.

Need to start singing.
Need to start reading between the lines of the songs.
Need to start to be independent. Depend on me and only me alone.
Need to start striving for my future.

Changes.

2011-12-13T19:54:00.000+08:00

I know the new year is around the corner,
and it's time for changes.
Changes for the better.

But i just can't help but notice myself changing.
Without myself controlling them at all.
And i have no idea why.

But somehow,
deep down,
i don't think it's for the better..
sigh.

I embrace you, 2012.

2011-12-13T19:51:00.000+08:00

Yep.
The new year is coming.
So it's time to change for the better.
& get a new diary.

Got myself a new diary/organiser.
This year, i gotta really make full use of my planner and make sure it does organise my life.
Yes, i've been having/using a planner ever since what? P6?
The year where i tried to set my life straight.

My organisers have played a pretty big part in my life.
They walked with me throughout my life through thick and thin..
You can say they are all my BFFs.
And i had to let them go at the end of the year in search for a brand new one.
i'm sorry about that.
Gotta admit that throughout these years, i have using them for a wrong reason.
I no longer really use them to keep my life in shape
but rather use them to doodle or scribble my current feelings randomly on any page.
Or to jot down or paste things that remind me of special events that happened.

But this coming year.
I gotta make sure i get my life back on track.
Keep Focus.
Prioritise what is more important.
Think about your future.
Think long term.
Fighting.

Really like my new organiser.
Even though it's a little too tiny and pretty costly,
i absolutely LOVE the graphics :)
Artsy-Fartsy ;D

Enjoy :]

This kinda look like lady gaga to me,,, haha.

I ADORE THIS.!

2011-12-09T17:47:00.001+08:00

Okay, I know, it has been
A LONG TIME.

But it's either laziness or my life is simply jus not exciting enough. So, sorry folks.hehe. I guess I'm pretty boring.

Anw, this week has been pretty or really exciting I should say? Actually planned to shop at Queensway on monday for a new pair of shoes but I ended up hopping over to Godma's and even stayed over for a night:)

Spent the whole day and night playing Karin's awesome card/board games. Haha. Totally a settler's club over there. Hees.

Was supposed to have class in tues de. But last minute cancelled:) I bet most ppl wouldn't see it as a happy thing cos everyone are hardworking people, except for me.haha.

So had zichar dinner with Godma family n my family:) awesome much. And I probably can follow them to sydney in feb.hopefully I can! So I intend to mug really hard from now on so I won't be missing out much. And must start extreme dieting too!!

Went out yesterday with Godma n karin again. Awesome shopping at orchard;) bought 2 tops from F21.hoho.dinner at watami was fantastic too;) buying much stuff from F21 lately. Not bcos I like it. But cos they are the cheaper substitutes for the clothes that I like. If I've got the money I wldnt hv spent money there at all. Zara is my paradise.

Today,totally look like some fat pregnant woman in the morning. Cos since I will be going home during my 4hours between class break I heck cared. But felt rather no confident de. Sudden outbreak of painful acne, ugly black roots much exposed, fat and fair flabby arms, clipped up fringe and big black tote that when combined together with my brown baggy ragged top make me look friggin pregnant?!? In fact I'm surprised no one offered me a seat on the train. Yes, the damn trains in singapore where everyone snatches the damn seats. SERIOUSLY?! the seats ain't gold-plated or weight-losing.WTS?!

Couldn't stand the way I looked so I took out my shades and hide behind them all the way home.

Headed home today to doll up;) cos will be attending a ballet in the evening right after sch today. The nutcracker. Although I don't like the fact that it is Chinese/Asian- themed.*roll eyes. Hope it'll be awesome enough to make me nt mind the special theme. Zzz. But still exciting:D ;D

So today marks the first time I wear heels to sch. Hees. I was always afraid that people will be like,"WTS, come sch also wear heels..." I mean it's natural,we tend to stereotype these ppl as bitches but.. Sometimes but also rise up to occasion ma hor? Hees. Afterall I dont think I walk awkwardly in heels after much practice thru the sat few months:)

Tomorrow, Godma and family will be coming over fr dinner:) we making sushi:) dad's thinking of getting a Xmas tree from ikea. Can't wait to let the nostalgic scent of pine be immersed into our home again;) hees.

And I wanna do my hair SOON!

Wasn't able to study much and furthermore will be away to THAILAND-BANGKOK in 1&1/2week later? MUG!

Excited for the Bangkok trip much. In fact it doesn't matter where I go,as long as I go on a holiday,I am a happy girl:)
Shopping trip sia. Have been wanting to go Bangkok shopping since a million years ago. Gonna buy buy buy!! Be jealous,bitches.

Even though the timing are always not right.but I shall still make it work out.why didn't all these opportunities came during my 8month long holidays?! I was like friggin stuck in singapore?!?!??!? But still better than not going at all:) 知足.

It's Friday again.

2011-11-11T16:37:00.002+08:00

Yup, reporting to you from econs lecture again. Idk why but seriously Katherine always skipping lessons and getting very late for class is getting on my fucking nerves.

I wanna go home:(

Last Wednesday with one lecture.

2011-11-09T21:48:00.001+08:00

And rkry decided to pon school today.

It was Friday.

2011-11-05T18:21:00.001+08:00

Now, I'm sitting alone in the middle of Econs lecture blogging. Yep. I even wanted to pon this class.

Firstly: Having a churning tummy since yesterday night and went to the ladies thrice throughout the day. This factor caused me to feel even more reluctant to go for classes today.

Secondly: Katherine pon class again :( And hence Rachel is being a loner in the LT. She needed to go collect her SNSD concert tix. Oh bother.

Thirdly: Mr Ting is only going through tutorials. Which is honestly a waste of time for me. Cos I didn't do it(yes,slap me) and now,half an hour left and I see that he would not be touching theory at all. I SHOULD REALLY HAVE RAN HOME! The 2 persons beside me already left during the break. I'm still persevering(?) down here.

Sigh. The pathetic life of a lazy girl.

Anyway, had lunch at Everything With Fries @ Holland V with xm love;) the food was not totally awesome. But still not bad. Very filling. Couldn't finish the fries. I think the desserts are more tempting. But didn't get to try.cos main entree was alr not vry cheap so decided to forgo.

Sat throughout the whole 3 hours and thank god. He went through topic 7 theory;)

RUNNING MAN~

2011-10-27T23:37:00.001+08:00

Sorry peeps,

But Running Man is totally turning me into an OTAKU!!
Totally glued to it.

OMG. Whole day thinking about running man and just want to watch it whole day.
Everything Running Man!

Especially HEART KWANGSOO AND GARY <3
& JaeSuk too^^
Monday couple~

2011-10-10T21:43:00.002+08:00

Gonna Get Over You - Sara Bareilles

Goodbye
Should be sayin' that to you by now, shouldn't I?
Layin' down the law that I live by,
Though maybe next time

I've got a thick tongue,
Brimming with the words that go unsung
Simmer then the burn for a someone,
A wrong one

And I tell myself to let the story end,
My heart will rest in someone else's hand
My 'why not me?' philosophy began,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

Maybe is a vicious little word that can slay me
Keep me when I'm hurting and make me,
Hang from your hands

Well, no more,
I won't beg to buy a shot at your back door
If I make it at the thought of you, what for?
It's not me anymore

And I'm not the girl that I intend to be,
I dare you darling, just you wait and see
But this time not for you but just for me,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

I stand corrected,
I know too well
And now it's much too late for you for me as far as I can tell,
Oh I say, oh yeah, yeah, yeah

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

2011-10-10T21:40:00.002+08:00

Goodbye
Should be sayin' that to you by now, shouldn't I?
Layin' down the law that I live by,
Though maybe next time

I've got a thick tongue,
Brimming with the words that go unsung
Simmer then the burn for a someone,
A wrong one

And I tell myself to let the story end,
My heart will rest in someone else's hand
My 'why not me?' philosophy began,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

Maybe is a vicious little word that can slay me
Keep me when I'm hurting and make me,
Hang from your hands

Well, no more,
I won't beg to buy a shot at your back door
If I make it at the thought of you, what for?
It's not me anymore

And I'm not the girl that I intend to be,
I dare you darling, just you wait and see
But this time not for you but just for me,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

I stand corrected,
I know too well
And now it's much too late for you for me as far as I can tell,
Oh I say, oh yeah, yeah, yeah

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

Breakeven - The Script

2011-10-08T14:47:00.001+08:00

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
~~She finally met a man that's gonna put her 1st~~
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

You got ~~his heart and~~ my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Math Poems. LOL.

2011-10-08T13:54:00.000+08:00

He’s teaching her arithmetic,
Because it is his mission.
He kissed her once, he kissed her twice
and said, “Now, that’s addition.”

As he added smack by smack
In silent satisfaction,
She sweetly gave the kisses back
and said, “Now, that’s subtraction.”

Then he kissed her, she kissed him,
Without an explanation,
And both together smiled and said,
“Now, that’s multiplication.”

Then Dad appeared upon the scene and
Made a quick decision.
He kicked the boy out of the house
And said, “Now, that’s division!”

Something For Lina LOVE

2011-10-06T11:43:00.005+08:00

WHAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING INSTEAD:

AMEND STEP 6 BY ADDING A "DON'T" AT THE FRONT.

A mixed up, jumbled up mess

2011-10-06T11:11:00.006+08:00

Was out practically the whole day yesterday.

10.30 am: Brunch with Xinmin and Na.
3.30pm: Den school.
7.30pm: Dinner with the Porks.
11.20pm: Home at last.

Surprisingly, the best part of the day was at school.
Had some small talk with KatKat.(Kit Kat)

Was like talking about friendship relationship stuff and i just couldn't help but agree more.

She did mention that sometimes,
when you start getting closer to someone(friend),
you just can't help but feel possessive over him/her.
That's just because you really care for what you share.
But many a times, it just seems like a one-sided thing.
Cos you will just end up expecting that person to this or that.
Treasure that relationship you THOUGHT you have,
when actually you don't.
(Yup! 2-faced Deep-Shits. Cos to me,
HONESTY AMONG TRUE CLOSE BUDS,IS THE BEST POLICY.
even if it's not what i wish to hear. )
And it's not exactly their fault to be insensitive or careless.
It's your fault for just putting too high hopes on them.

She did also mention that, yes, it's just friendship only.
But YOU JUST CAN'T HELP IT.
And you just can't help but fell hurt in the end.

So her conclusion was to not have too close friends
in order to protect herself from all the one-sided hurt.
it's practically a win-lose situation where the other party takes it all
while you on the other hand loses every. single. thing.
NO POINT.

But the ultimate question is..
Is it worth the pain?
Are they worth it?

When you start thinking about it,
from all the past experimenting,
they usually, most of the time, don't deserve all these sacrifices.

cos i happen to read this somewhere:

If a person wants to be a part of your life, they will make an obvious effort to do so. Don't bother reserving a space in your heart for people who do not make an effort to stay.

So in reply to this quote,
I will not make the effort to those who i made an effort to,
but did not do the same in return.
I've got to learn to love myself more.
Cos some people just wouldn't appreciate those unspoken gestures.
And they would never do so much for you.
& they'll just never understand.
i should just invest THAT wasted effort on someone else,
somebody else whom i believe would value it.

So from now on guys,
I'm just gonna simply ask you for the sake of politeness.
I'll not harbour any hope for anything else MORE than that.
Don't feel pressured or obliged to do so without even WANTING to.
It's your life, your choice.
and mine.

It's funny why i am so vexed by all these kinda chummy issues when others my age are fussing over their love lives.

PORKIES, i'm losing you :'(

2011-10-03T01:16:00.000+08:00

It's been slightly more than a week since i last blogged.
And i blog-hopped to sandy,nana and ah no's blogs.

Just reading their posts make me miss them all a lot.
& it made me realised it's been MONTHS since we hung out TOGETHER.
all 5 of us.
& it made me really sad.

we're all busy with our own lives and just can't find a time whr we can all go mad like we used to before.
Where are the lost laughs?
in fact,
Where have we all gotten to?

i really REALLY miss the times man!
When can we finally meet up..
AND TALK
AND LAUGH
AND GO CRAZY
AND TAKE THOSE SILLY PICTURES

We gotta find time and hang out FUCKING soon! :(

Can you believe it?
That was what i believe as the last meet up we had tgt.
with all 5 of us.
and that's all!
& sandy didn't even stayed with us through out :/

take it, take it all, take all that i have
i'd give it all away just to get you back
fake it, fake it, i'll take what i can get
knocking so loud can you hear me yet?

There's always a FIRST to everything.

2011-09-23T23:27:00.001+08:00

Today is friday.

& my timetable is somewhat.. sucky.
on fridays.
So it's not TGIF for me.
It's more of like WGIFA.
(Why,God,It's Friday Already!?)

O..K.
Let me tell you why.
On fridays,
I have to wake up at 6.
& reach school by 8.30am.
This class ends at 11.30am.
BUT next class starts at 15.30.
HOO-HAA.
dunno how to spend that 4hours.

So today,
i intended to stay in sch for THAT 4 hours
BUT i intended not to.
cos i nearly fell asleep during my morning class
& i needed to hype up myself.
OR the aftnn class will be another HELL.

So i hopped on the bus to west mall.
AND i finally got to have lunch alone :D
I know, to many of you out there,
lunching alone is like for loners and outcasts or whatever.
But to me,
it's kinda enjoyable?
& it made me feel independent.
After experiencing many disappointments when it comes to finding people to simply hang out with,
it made me wanna learn how to not rely on people.
if i can do it alone, why not?

& from time to time,
i've actually grown to enjoy n like it :)
It feels challenging in a way and after finally conquering that obstacle,
you just can't help but feel satisfied with yourself :)

ANW,
today i went to eat pastamania's MEATBALLS for lunch.
was craving for that ever since katherine ate it like nxt to me.
Like piping hot, AND NXT TO ME!
So i succumbed to my temptations n had that for pastamania to lunch alone:)
couldn't help but notice a few peeps looking at me eating alone.
HOHO.
I AM BRAVE ;)
& i felt pleased.

After the lunch, i took my back pack n headed to jurong point.
HOOHOO!
n bought the lip stain that i've been wanting for sooo long.
n that eye make up base.
They freaking totalled up to 40+
mad.
but i couldnt get them off my mind so i jus got it.

Next, i wanted to go to the bank to change my addy
but the Q was neverending and i didn't wanna waste my time Q-ing.
So i jus went to get hair removal cream ;)
WHICH YIZHEN & LIYUN tempted me to do it.

i guess lately i've been pretty flamboyant.
haha.
easily influenced by my new friends which is BAD!!
but my leg hair have always been a eye sore so..
i jus spent another 11 bucks.
yep.

~~BUT THAT TIME WHEN I SKIPPED LECT TO EAT LUNCH N SLACK OUTSIDE WAS BAD!~~
~~N I TOTALLY REGRETTED IT.~~
~~IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN.~~
~~I JUST WASTED 100 BUCKS OF MY PARENTS HARD-EARNED MONEY.~~
~~SLAP ME HARDDD!!!!~~

Anw, i shopped around and found FAB ex necklaces THAT I WANT.
n XM said she's gonna spend 40bucks on me for xmas n i get to choose ANYTHING.
Even drugs or condoms.
okay. i was kidding.

BUT I'VE BEEN SEEING SO MANY AWESOME ACCESSORIES AROUND
I JUST DIDNT KNOW WHICH TO PICK
OR SHOULD I EVEN BUY.

but I SHALL MAKE HER GET ME THOSE FROM DIVA
they got sale too 3 at the price of 2.
So Yup!

Will be seeing her for the second time this week tmr.
Gonna go SIM open house, THEN, movie again..
AND ORCHARD SHOPPING!!
NEW CLOTHES FOR THE SEASON!! HOOT HOOT!!

Headed back to sch for aftnn class and attended lecture alone.
Cos katherine was sick today.
can't help but admit..
it's much better to study w/o her.
sigh.

OH!
n i shaved my legs! (another FIRST)
they are now smooth n bare.
well, at least FOR NOW.
HAHA

PLAN FOR NEXT FRIDAY,
SOLITARY TRIP TO THE MOOOVIESS :D
but if i were to watch friends with benefits alone
i think the ticket person will think i'm sick or horny..
boo:/
But
should i even CARE?!

nice Peanuts?

2011-09-23T22:39:00.001+08:00

Today, Daddy fetched me home from school :D
Saving her dear daughter from the evening public transport SQUEEZE xS
On our way back,
he told me he spotted one of his directors sitting in a wet market ,somewhere in the west,
eating peanuts.
With his wife and talking with the shopkeeper.
All these during office hours.

He totally stunned when he saw dad. HAHA.
n dad wanted to ask him, "Why? The peanuts here good ah?"
But of cos he saved his own ass and just said hi. HAHA.
LOL.

Hope the colour and font size helps :)

A doggy question.

2011-09-22T17:28:00.000+08:00

NOREN LPY,

My reliable walking animal DIC.
Please tell me what breed is this cute little fluffy thingy<3?

This is FUNNY.

2011-09-22T17:26:00.003+08:00

Becky's followup

2011-09-22T17:26:00.000+08:00

Remember this comic strip?

Becky created a PART 2 to it.

Lame shit.

My new guiders.

2011-09-22T17:23:00.000+08:00

Just gotta say that having good teachers REALLY makes a difference.
I didn't like ANY of my teachers in my JC.
Well, at least none that taught me.
Just felt too restricted.

However i kinda like my new lecturers:)
They somehow can manage to make me motivated to study :)
At least i dont exactly see studying so much of a PAIN now.

jus an interesting puzzle by my math lecturer :) HAHA.

Dearest Daddy's Favourite Plant

2011-09-22T17:17:00.002+08:00

Dad was telling me how cool his plant is.

Not only does the leaves curl and straighten out from time to time,
Their flowers are interesting too.

My Dearest Daddy

2011-09-22T17:16:00.000+08:00

Daddy's birthday is round the corner.

& we have no idea what to get him (as usual)
We only decided on the cake.
Which is Blackforest Cake (as usual)

& prolly some durian puffs to go along with it.

But anw,

dad's a little goofy lately.
The other day,
he hopped into our room and modelled in MY WATCH.
Then, he went returned the watch to out dressing table
AND brought over my PERFUME and BANGLES to play with bex.
LMAO.

He asked becky to hold the perfume bottle and he tried to aim and throw my bangles into it.
AND THEY TOOK TURNS THROWING!!
RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!!
WHAT THE SHIT!

Another day of his lame acts.
I AM DEFINITELY HIS DAUGHTER.

My new TOY!! :D

2011-09-22T17:08:00.000+08:00

I needed a normal calculator for my new school.

& i refuse to bring the big and hideous one we have that mum always uses.

So... this started.

Becky helped me ask daddy. The 3rd mushy bubble is FROM BECKY. NOT ME! xD

Day 2

So, i reminded him again.. Being myself.

But! Dad being Dad, didn't bring it home that night.

So, that brings us to the 3rd day..

Thru cheeky becky again..

He even attempted to change the subject.

And it resulted to me becoming a sicko. But it's okay..

Cos in the end, he bought me this!

A brand new RED HOT calculator!! hehe..

GOODNESS GRACIOUS, SHOPPING!!

2011-09-22T16:49:00.001+08:00

Thanks to Katherine,
(For those of you,practically all except PSM, who dunno who is she)
ONE OF MY NEW FRIENDS in school,

I am addicted to online shopping.
I know I know *holds up hand
I'm like a little slow in catching this ADDICTION.
haha.
But i used to believe in seeing and touching the product,
BEFORE eventually deciding whether i should buy it.
& all the cheap clothes at bugis are from online shops.
I hardly can fit into any with my BALLOONY body!
but somehow,
there are some online that caught my eye and i decided to grab them.
PLUS, looking at the price..
i just gave in.

So far, i've recieved my nail stickers and first batch of clothes and
I'm actually pretty satisfied with them. Considering the price and everything.

WHEE~ i am happy. *dance around

But was walking in town after the movie ytd and i saw all the new season clothings and i was like..

HOLY MOLY!! MY CLOTHES ARE ON THE SHELVES!
but as always, i'm gonna wait till the eoy sales..
not working=can't afford better clothes.

Lesson learnt: wait till the autumn/winter season to get your clothes.

It's like seriously!!
I've been dreaming of such clothes in the summer season?!

Was also hoping to influence xinmin to dress up by opening her eyes to all these wonderful creations(clothes)
Cross our fingies.

XM: "Can you imagine me in this?" (not the first time she asked me that)
ME: "YES, YOU SHOULD WEAR ALL THESE!!"
ME: "If only i have your size, your kinda body, you would have spotted me in all kinds of clothings."

So Xinmin, i was serious!Don't be daft, YOU ARE NOT FAT. And you'll definitely look good in all those clothes! SO, GO GIRL!

2011-09-22T16:20:00.000+08:00

School ended at 6.30pm and i immediately chiong-ed to town when class ended.
It was worth the rush.
cos i made in time to catch Chalet Girl at 7.20pm :)

It was great.
I know the story might be unrealistic or whatever
but it definitely did not fail in making my heart melt
and hope it is REAL.
It's like the best job ever to be a chalet girl.

Was telling Xinmin how i wish i get landed with such a job and meet a rich good looking dude.
She was more sensible and told me if i knew this is NEVER gonna happen.
All i could was just sigh.
Well, she was RIGHT.
Hoping really hurts.

& the scenery is LIKE AWESOME.
Can't help but wanna learn how to snow board and to be in the FREEEEZING COLD.
I guess i'll start dressing in comfy, snuggly cold (rainy) wear for this coming week.
THE CHALET GIRL FEVER.
hah!

One of my favourite scenes below :)

I'll Be Waiting

2011-09-22T15:57:00.002+08:00

There's this new song that i'm into for the past one week or so..
It's a pretty old song, not a hit. But it definitely did HIT me :)

The Way I Loved You - Taylor Swift, Album: Fearless

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better

He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says, you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I've been screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He respects my space and never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing, and I'm comfortable

But I've been screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He can't see the smile I'm fakin'
And my heart's not breakin'
'Cause I'm not feelin' anything at all

And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated
Got away by some mistake and now

I'll be screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
It's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

And that's the way I loved you
I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

I would DIE to experience love like this.

Just that if i die i wouldn't be able to experience anything at all.

Crap. wts am i talking about.

But no. NEVER experience any love at all.

I just gotta learn how to WAIT.

I will wait for that day then huh?:')

Let's just hope that the wait is worth it.

2011-09-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, when a house is too perfect, it doesn't feel like a home.

2011-09-15T19:01:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i feel like:

2011-09-15T13:30:00.002+08:00

Opportunity cost for MUGGING HARD TODAY:

miss out dinner with the PORKS :(

2011-09-15T13:29:00.001+08:00

Sometimes some stuff make you feel pretty useless
Even though it's pretty FUNNY..

But when you feel that you are useless,...
you actually ain't.
Cos you might have something that you are good at..

OR There's at least one more thing...

2011-09-15T13:24:00.000+08:00

Chanced upon this yesterday.
I guess Noren can't name her shop this in the future anymore:'(
aww..

But the name card is cool.
it's transparent :)

DISGUSTED DAY

2011-09-15T13:22:00.000+08:00

Captured these yesterday. Was waiting for bus 61 for like 20mins and there was still no sign of it.

Hence i decided to cross over to take a bus to clementi mrt.

Then there was this JAM that made a 10min ride into another 20-25 min bus ride.

Whoa.

the sky was really dark at 7 yea? <=)

When i was omw to sch ytd.
THERE was this pervertic middle aged man!!
he kept staring at me sia!
walao shock tio.
totally freaked me out
initially i thot he was peeping at what i was doing on my phone sia.
and the way he stand was like weird only.
as in he was i was leaning against the window (i was in the cabin that is fully for standing passengers)
den he was standing nxt to me standing 90deg to the window facing me.
SIAO ONE!
den i glanced up at me a few times den he pretend look away.
SIAO.GROSS SHIT.
den later i start to take notice of his actions
and he glanced me up n down SIA!!!
FUCK!
i was wearing this conservative longsleeved thick dress
and my boobies look small in this dress sia!
SICK ONLY!
when i alight at jurong east to change train.
i tried to see if he's anywhr to be seen while waiting for the train
n i was relieved he was gone
but when i entered the train then i realised he was queuing at the same entrance somewhr behind me
den its like he stood nxt to me n continue staring sia
SIAO!
conservative outfit yo!
i frowned at him he still look
SICKKK
so i just walk away to the next cubicle
GROSS
(&we alighted at the same station somemore.suay!)

2011-09-15T12:57:00.002+08:00

thank you lina for the thoughtful &special aussie gifts <3

A BIG THANK YOU TO A SPECIAL FRIEND

2011-09-15T12:50:00.000+08:00

Thank You Lina Tay.

idk, but lovely girl,
lately, you've always been the one that i can rely on
- most of the time.

& jus wanna say thanks for everything.
Even if it's the smallest n tiniest,
Or even the simplest of things,
It was not taken for granted.
I appreciated them all.

2011-09-15T12:18:00.000+08:00

Check out this song:

Who's That Girl - Guy Sebastian Ft. Eve

It's an interesting song cos its like a SWEET CLUBBING song. haha!

Idiom of the day

2011-09-15T00:57:00.000+08:00

Idioms for Idiots :D

2011-09-14T12:13:00.002+08:00

I gotta learn how to appreciate mine..

They are real.

2011-09-14T12:10:00.002+08:00

I miss those secondary school days when we could have meals together every day and talk crap all the time
& just LAUGH

cos now, we have to FIND time,
which makes it all difficult and complicated.

2011-09-12T10:34:00.001+08:00

Was at millenia walk ytd,

cos rents wanted to get a new mattress(they got a 15-inch high mattress!,siao!)

at harvey norman.

& also a cool new hairdryer :)

So being the BREAD FREAK that i am,

how can i not try the bread at Pullman Bakery when i'm there?

So i bought a few pieces :)

Have not try yet though..

hehes.

*saw huiyun and annabelle, and i pretended i nvr see them. (sorry nana, idunlikeA)

2011-09-12T10:10:00.000+08:00

Dachshund Pups :3

Went to NEX yesterday with the family and brought them to the top-doggie-level to view dogs:)

(for once i felt glad that i follow noren around to do her pet errands:),

now i know where to view dogs for adoption)

I can't believe i saw 2 dachshunds!! it's so cute..

ah no said that dachshunds are pretty uncommon over here so..

was pretty glad !

But dad still didnt like it...

We saw another dog which i can't identify the breed.

But it was really well groomed.

The fur look like velvet.

seriously.

& it was like wearing shoes that made her look like some caterpillar. Oops! haha

Went into the petshop to see see look look.

& there was ANOTHER dachshund.

Saw this chihuahua pup that was like SUPER tiny.god.

the Pomeranian pup was like pretty cutey too.

But of all the pups in the shop,

the BLACK LABRADOR WAS THE BEST.

it's like a DOG dog.

you get what i mean?

it's like the traditional dog.

it's like what the average people would picture when you say,

"Dog."

haha. It was nice.. and it's BLACK :)

black dogs are like a ... nice.

Unfortunately,

we all witnessed it pee AND POOP

and mum was like grossed out.

which is a sad story :'(

RACHEL OVER HERE HOPING FOR THE BEST.

French Bulldogs :)

Dachshund pups:)

i still heart you, KATY PERRY!

2011-09-08T02:53:00.002+08:00

Just a week ago,
someone told me that Katy Perry worship the devil :(

I think everyone, EVERYONE should watch this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4X-f-TIsT5M&feature=related

i can't embed it so. here! :)
get ready to spend 20 minutes!

i don't think she's that evil if she does something like that yea? :]

I wanna jump over my own hurdle(s) too.

2011-09-08T02:13:00.000+08:00

Something RETARDED for you:)

I had a good laugh! :'D

2011-09-08T01:59:00.000+08:00

Lately, Dad have been getting sick A LOT.

so sissy went to make a get well soon card for him :)

sweet cakes.

Here's the content and illustrations she created :)

Mum was home today.

She was like packing her stuff and here are some pass-me-down treasures for me ;)

<3 sweet.

New School, New Friends, New Environment

2011-09-08T01:50:00.000+08:00

Entering my Junior College allowed me to learnt many things about myself.

gave me many deep self-thinking-reflecting sessions.

One of the things that i came to realise about myself is that.

1) I am a pretty slow learner

Hence, i cannot understand things that are being taught in class,when i'm in class.

I really gotta spend extra & more time than others to really study & analyse what the teacher taught.

2) Any degree of multi-tasking won't do for me.

100% focus.

(it's not smth that i figured out only in JC but i learnt how much multi-task is a big NONO to me)

3) I have a very short attention span.

I cannot last 3hours studying like normal people do.

I am SO SPECIAL. I end up spending a whole day on A subject.

cos of the in between mini-breaks.

4) My memory is deteriorating.

i can hardly remember anything in my daily life accurately.

What more, what i studied?

= more revision time is needed.

Leaving my JC allowed me to realise what amazing people i HAD around me.

Now then i appreciate what i took for granted last year.

The tolerance they always had when explaining certain concepts.

Knowing how weak and slow yet slowly teaching me.

& making sure that i REALLY understand :')

Thank you PSM, JOJO & PAPAYA <3

I don't think i'm that stupid,

just slow.

thick in the head.(& also other parts of my curvy body)

That's all.

It's difficult for me when my new friends talk to me in lecture cos i can't multi-task.

If i talk to you, i will totally not absorb what the lecturer said for the past few seconds or minutes thinking of what to say to you, how to ans your qstn, worrying what i'd missed.

I know it's something so simple, yet i'm having problems handling it!!

it's ridiculous.

But i just can't help it!

And when they ask me questions on the subject,

i feel worse.

cos i really can't answer them.

bcos i feel like i understand LESS than you.

& i'm just too embarrassed to explain why.

& it sucks when they ask me questions too.

It makes me feel like i'm not thinking.

Sometimes if you can't even understand the basic concepts well,

you can't even think of how to answer class exercises.

cos you are just totally CLUELESS.

So...

i'm sorry if i WILL be busy.

cos i really have to get all these done WELL.

i don't wanna look back & sigh.

i just gotta learn to be faster AND BETTER even if i'll take the more jerky & long path.

2011-09-07T13:21:00.000+08:00

FINALLY GOT'EM!!

Woots! SUPER HAPPY!!
Among all,
i think Adele n Jessie J is the best.
Haha. UK artistes on the rise! YipYip!
Still getting used to gaga's tracks.
it kinda caused me a headache after listening to her album
so i set it aside first.

BUT ADELE IS LIKE MY NEW FAV ARTISTE
whee~ hehe
HEART JESSIE J too :)

2011-09-07T12:20:00.001+08:00

HELLO!

Didnt have sch ytd.
So practically mugged the whole day.
But of cos.

Had this for a break :)

Seriously $3.90 per golden blob is not really THAT worth it.
But haven't had it for very long alr.
& i bought it a week ago.
So it appears Free now.
haha!
Because i learnt in POA,
PREPAYMENT = CURRENT ASSET = FUTURE ECONOMIC BENEFIT
:) heh heh. i did study * wriggle brows.
So, my "FUTURE ECONOMIC BENEFIT" was being consumed yesterday afternoon.

Lately, i'm addicted to the ActionCam App.
I know i'm slow but that was bcos my old iphone cannot use the App.
Simply bcos my iphone was TOO OLD n the App wasnt compatible.
But now I get to finally understand why Zoe keeps taking photos with that APP!
oh god.

So the below is the evidence of my muggin.
*take a peek, papaya! :)

GOAL ACCOMPLISHED!

AND,

I finally received my Subject Guides or kinda like my Text/Reference Books specially Air-mailed from the UK. How freaking cool is that?! Thick books that absorbed all the gloomy,overcast skies and cold weather specially mailed over all in one BIG,HEAVY SACK :) excited only! keke.

Btw the light blue rectangle thing there is a ring file. I put it beside the sack to do a size comparison :)

Didnt have time to blog ytd cos was too tired. So.. blogged today instead :)

2011-09-01T14:02:00.002+08:00

was popular shopping ytd after school to buy some files to organise myself.
THEN, i chanced upon this book.

I think i need this.
& DAMN my time management!

boo

2011-09-01T13:56:00.000+08:00

On Hari Raya PH,
instead of staying home mugging,
i gave in to mum & agreed to spend some family bonding time.
Well..
although it was mainly because we MIGHT be going CD shopping.

But it was still a happy outing :)
Went to the nurseries @ marymount to buy plant.
Bex and i got ourselves daisies and roses ;)
Yay!

Shopped around and discovered many interesting cute plants:)
After that we headed to Maxwell to dabao dinner
then home sweet home.

although i was disappointed that i wasnt able to get my cds..
but..
it was still glad i went :)

Dad n mum have been pretty crazy with good speakers lately
& dad got us this new set of good speakers for our living room.
:) yay. heart it.

2011-09-01T12:44:00.003+08:00

"What's the good of being Juliet when Romeo shows no sign of killing himself for love, but instead prances off with Rosalind?"

Chanced upon this photo editorial from Vogue. Sweeet. <3

2011-08-31T03:05:00.001+08:00

Some time ago,

Zoe Love introduced Crayola's wonderful Rainbow Twistables to me.

I was pretty amused by it.

I was never really that impressed with Crayola products.

However, according to Zoe,

these Rainbow Wonders are like "extinct".

She tried to head back to buy some more for her friends who adored them too.

But, they were gone.

In my mind, I could hear Barney's voice echo-ing in my head,

"Challenge accepted."

haha.

I tried scouting for them in other stationery or art stores too.

But to no avail.

Finally!

I chance upon THIS in some hidden place in Singapore.

This shop has officially become my No.1 Fav Stationery Store :)

hees.

Not only do i get the Rainbow Crayons, I got Metallic and Neon ones ;)

You gotta learn to be patient and wait. Then, will you be able to find the Real Treasure :)
That's MY takeaway. So long, folks!

2011-08-31T02:55:00.000+08:00

When rachel was still skinny and very young.

Even before starting school,

she was being looked after by her Godma.

Her cousin was in primary school then.

So whenever her cousin goes downstairs to wait for her school bus,

rachel and her Godma will accompany her to wait together.

But before heading to the waiting point,

sometimes they will stop by a mama shop.

There were times when her cousin bought this particular snack

which rachel envied and thought to herself,

"When i grow up, and i have money, i'll buy a lot of this!" and smiled to herself.

After many many years, rachel grew from skinny to plump to fat to VERY fat.

From time to time she have thought about that particular snack that she hoped for.

Unfortunately, there are many things that fades away with time

& she thought that this snack was one of them.

BUT!

rachel FINALLY found it in some condo vending machine!

She finally got to taste the long forgotten snack in her favourite flavour too! :)

Conclusion:

I didn't like it as much as i thought i would.

It became too sweet for me.

I guess i'm too old for such sweet stuff alr.

Well, people do change over time :/

But nevertheless i'm VERY VERYglad i found it.

very nostalgic.

you know, that kinda satisfaction of discovering something that you thought was lost forever :)

it was fun:)

It was the blood rush..

2011-08-23T18:21:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the sudden temper boom.

I gotta learn to love what i have right now :')

My Itinary for Tomorrow.

2011-08-19T01:02:00.000+08:00

8:30am: wakey
8:30-9.20am: sweep/ magic mop floor
9.20-10: sew top plus decide on what to wear
10-11: settle SIM/ UOL registration thingy :SS
11-12.30pm: prepare n eat lunch plus tv :)
12.30-1.45pm: bathe n prepare to go out
1:45-9pm: Have FUN n catch up with the gurls

Hoping all goes well! :)

what is wrong with me?

2011-08-18T01:10:00.000+08:00

everyone's talking about their roomie.
pictures of their hall.
"oh, i'm staying over in school tonight. sorry."

God damn it!
So this is what i lose out cos of my fucking grades.
and why i'm fucking lonely these few days?
cos i fucking dont have a roomie?!

it's fine really.
i'm jus seeing green.
& probably..
a little red too.
WOW. BE MERRY.
cos those are the colours of fucking christmas.

is there anyone else in this world who cant seem to let things go too?
why do i have to have hands that grip so tightly on things?

2011-08-18T01:01:00.000+08:00

can't help but wonder..

will anyone ever see through me and tell me...

2011-08-18T00:55:00.000+08:00

Lately, I've been having funny mood swings.
Feeling all angsty,happy,sad then excited, disappointed &etc
All together.
Which sucks.
Idk. maybe cos i was bored and starting thinking and hoping for things that
APPARENTLY are a little hard to achieve.although i dunno why.
some crazy messed up bitch.

Lately,it's been hard to get tired.
although i know soon i'll be wanting to hit my pillow asap like before.
and it's also cos i'm home with hardly anything to do.

Watched Sex and the City today.
& actually it was pretty good.
the type of thing i was looking for.
friendshipppy with lovie n hot sex.
hahaHa. actually just the friendshippy n lovie parts.

it kept me thinking.
"will i ever have these kinda companionship ever?
cos seriously.it's one of the things that i really need.
A .. LOT.
it's like they are always there for each other n telepathic n understand one another SO WELL.
is it even realistic?
i might even start watching sex n the city from scratch ALREADY. god.
*p.s. noren.
if u wanna watch movies.try this.

Sidetrack:

If only i've got a fairy godmother who can at least grant me 3 wishes.
I would wish that she can give me a friend/partner who will always be there when i need him and who understands me thoroughly.

Secondly, i would wish that i can immediately shrink to a healthy weight.
Which is SUPER difficult to achieve. BUT I must say it's achievable but hard. BUT I CAN n I MUST!

& thirdly, wish that i have better luck. just a teeny bit better than now. cos everytime i say smth or hope not to get smth, I will end up getting the BAD thing. it's like everything i say or think is jinxed. n idk why.

can't wait for valentine's next year.
wanna get all LOVED UP.
by.
THE VOW.
go watch the trailer peeps.
its all sweet n love n tears. <3
all that i want NOW.

but neverminds.
i can wait for a few weeks more for my
KATY n BARNEY
in SMURFS !!

so. i'm gonna get all SMURFED UP
before LOVEing UP.
ok. what the heck.

gonna start gathering my barney-lovin' sisters
& single ladies to make them promise to watch these 2 movies
with ME!
all though they most prob will break those promises..
but..
still..
all i can do is
H.O.P.E.

:')

2011-07-19T10:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was pretty amazing :)
I managed to cross out some things that i've wanted to be done for quite some time.

Took half day to do some shopping even though i was sick :(
My main objective of the day: To hunt for the zara dress in my size.

Met up with mandy love at tpy and headed to taka for lunch.
Our lunch was also under my to-do list.
We bloody lunched at crystal jade.
Satisfying, yo.
My lovely congee <3

Second thing that i achieved was to try Starbuck's Soy Strawberries and Cream.
Which I tried one mouth and had to surrender it to the security guard guarding Zara at Liat Towers.
But cos i was too keen to hunt for my dress and letting the drink melt on its own also makes it easier for me to consume, i handed him the drinks willingly.

Ah no came along at around 4.30 (pretty on time, as always) and shocked us at Zara. In the end mandy was the one who managed to make purchases in most of the shops we enter -.-
Poor me!
Went to all 3 branches on orchard road and couldn't even find it,
not even one that is NOT even my size.

Craved for smth savoury and POP!
We were at ion's basement feasting on FREE 4 FINGERS CHICKEN WINGS!
Woots! mandy's treat.
I'll treat u guys smth nxt time too. SOON!
I cant help but mention we used up all my tissue paper when i was having the damned FLU!
haha! but it was alright:)

anw, after that we all agreed to head to 313 :)
(the Zara where i spotted and tried the dress)
AND I FOUND IT!

ah no said it was cute!
so i decided to grab it w/o any hesitation.
considering me being so eager and hunting it down on such a hungry manner the whole afternoon. Haha!

after grabbing the dress, i had to leave for bishan to meet my parents..
although i was really reluctant to leave.
i've gotta learn to exercise self control n discipline.
no more excuses or lies!
well.
the thing was when i reached bishan.
THEY JUST LEFT WOODLANDS and there was a friggin JAM!
But it was okay.
I managed to pass the time in watsons:)

Hope me n my darlings can go USS by next week!!!
and that we'll meet up again on one of the days of this week to do MORE SHOPPING BABAYS!
& please let me satisfy my pepper crabbie craving soon!

Love u much.

2011-07-18T12:37:00.003+08:00

Looking forward to watching HP7 part 2 :)

After a Sinful meal

2011-07-06T15:41:00.000+08:00

Since when did eating became a Sin?
& why?

Just finished a sinful yet satisfying lunch.

KFC's Transformers Boxmaster Meal.

It was BOOMZ-POW!!

But. Sinful.

Not to forget, every meal comes with a container of whipped potato

& a drink - Root Beer I CHOOSE YOU!

CBS3 hopped over to my workstation while i was feasting away

And we spent a couple of minutes discussing about how tasty it is.

According to CBS3, Root Beer is a must for him in every western meal.

Only with the combination of Root Beer will it satisfy his tummy fully :)

Cute.

Will I end up looking like CBS3 in the near future?

No way, I should start my veggie-only diet again. SOON.

Still, I've Sinned.

2011-05-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

cutesy, eh?

heh heh.

Hope your friday is good ;)

2011-04-22T15:52:00.000+08:00

Laugh ;D

Let this brighten up your day :)

Glad that it's raining out there :) hees.

2011-03-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

oh..

AND I DEFINITELY WANT HYUN BIN!

OMGOMG! LOVE HIM TTM!

2011-03-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

OMG!
nana reminded me today that..
my birthday is like COMING!
haha..

well.. i love mango/ strawberry cakeys!
i want a burberry wallet xP
i want SECRET GARDEN OST !! woots!
i want GMART stationeries!!
i want new shoes/wedges!
i want cotton on lanterns! but dunno where to hang :/
i want THICKERS!! (stickers that are thick!)
i want sleeping arrangements(bookie ;))
i want ikea photo/curtain clipppers
i want so many albums
i want so many things but i have so little money.

but for my birthday,
i don't need all of the above.
i want fun, joy and laughter.
and the great company of my LOVED friends.
The assurance that my friends really do appreciate me.
And that's enough alr:)

okay
i'm glad people rarely comes to my blog :)

2011-03-15T16:45:00.001+08:00

I guess i really really need to get new shoes alr, nana.
my shoes are spoiled.
i just bought it like a month ago?
sigh.
today is like a partially unlucky day.
i ordered ban mian and the person gave me U-mian:/

2011-03-14T16:43:00.001+08:00

Oh mee god!!

Can’t wait for the outing this coming thurs with my beloved porky babes;D

Like super egg-cited.

And idk why.

I was about to shut my eyes and be transported to lalaland when noren love texted me that porkies are having a conference online.

So I fought to stay awake and went online thru my iphone(which explains why I keep logging out)

The rough plan is that I will work half day this thurs (esp for my dearies)

& we will then lunch at tom yam (woots) with our favourite fried egg:)

*nana: rmb to order the $4.50, larger bowl one:D

After that we will then head down to ikea on Alexander rd to shop n stuff:)

Come to think of it, never really shopped at ikea with my porkies before.

After that I’ll be bringing them to a near by eating place to chill.

Cheap and good drinks & desserts!

We’ll probably then meet up with mandy after her work to catch, drum rolls please,

No Strings Attached! Hoohoo!

JTTW. If there’s time(quite impossible)

We can shop before meeting her lorxx..

Nana: I want heels/ wedges, babe!

Porkies: When will be our heels day btw?

Yet chingu: I feel like going back to eat at Liang Court sia… hahas.

Sin of the day: bought a $19 O’neill tote bag. Tempted my ZOE laaa! Piangs.

But kinda likey sia:) Is smth I will use anw ;D

2011-03-14T11:58:00.002+08:00

I want to do things my own pace.
I am not a machine or a robot
whereby you guys can use a remote to control.
No, i'm uncontrollable.

no more tears, really?

2011-03-10T10:44:00.000+08:00

Only xinmin and sandy know about this.

Which is really retarded.

Have you ever seen/ used this shampoo?

Well if you haven't, do you notice the "no more tears"?

Well, it failed on me.

Tears were bursting out of me when i was bathing that day.

but i gotta be fair and say,

it wasn't because the shampoo got into my eyes.

it was because of some other non-related event.

2011-03-05T18:46:00.000+08:00

i so wanna do something to my hair and give it an edge.
New start.
New attitude.

Chasing.

2011-03-05T18:28:00.000+08:00

Do you think that it is sad that you cannot really pursue your dreams?
Bcos it has not very good prospects.

Am at the crossroad of pursuing my passion, or to do something practical.

Zoe, i really lack courage and confidence.
i really dont have the courage to pursue my dream

like they said, i would really want to move on and no look back and regret.
But i don't have the courage and confidence to say that i wont regret.

2011-03-05T17:49:00.000+08:00

Well, i've got nothing to say.
Everyone's telling me to move on
i want to.

But they are pulling me back.

Have you ever been so lost
Known the way and still so lost
Another night waiting for someone to take me home
Have you ever been so lost

Is there a light
Is there a light
At the end of the road
I’m pushing everyone away
‘Cause I can’t feel this anymore
Can’t feel this anymore

DID i know the way? DO i know the way? WILL i know?

Maybe the reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

When will i know? Which is the perfect road?
i need clearer signs :(

Hoping.

2011-02-28T22:20:00.000+08:00

I really really really REALLY Really reallY rEally ReAlLy rEaLlY really really reeeaaaaalllllllyyy realllly reallllllllyyyyy REALLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYY really really realllllyyy really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really REALLY hope that i can get into a decent course in NUS. Hope the gods above can see the effort i put in over here( the many 'really's)yupps. really do wanna move on and pursue a degree. please pleeeease.

why?

2011-02-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

Life is unfair isn't it?

Why is it that some people just have better luck than you do?
Why do people have the right to show their temper, their feeling when other can't?
Why some people can just say what they want to say so easily and freely while others
have to keep it deep inside them and let it cut their wounds ever so deeply?
Will the wound ever heal?
Will the struggle ever end?
Will my tears ever stop?

When will I ever get the courage to stand up?
I did try, but i just ended falling back down.
Crushed even further, even more tormenting.
I should stand up again and never give up, is it?
is it right?
cos it feels as if I've been trained from young to just absorb and accept all of your says and beliefs.

When can I learn to grow up and be independent?
Away from all these noise.

2010-12-11T13:39:00.000+08:00

Seriously.
Sometimes it's not I don't wanna be high etc
It's just so difficult to achieve that when I'm with you.
No matter what people do to try, you will still find fault in it.
When will you learn to trust the people around you?
Even if we really care.
Why can't you learn to accept certain minor things.
Aren't we supposed to?
Cos.. Not everyone is perfect.

It's tiring.
When will it ever stop?
When will you stop thinking too much?
Will this ever end?

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!! - I'm still a kid

2010-10-02T00:09:00.001+08:00

We were having out last PE lesson today
& yet most of the 208 girls,
didn't seem to cherish the little time we've got left..
together.
Most of them chose to be caught up in their own lil worlds
& refusing to give in and make this lesson a memorable one.

I was pretty tired of their ability to be able to
get soo stuck to the benches and spewing lame excuses.
So I went on having fun without them.
Played my heart out with Zhiqian, Yi Lin, Joan, Vivien and
the unspeakable M.
It is the least bit I could do
to ensure that this session won't get wasted
and that there will still be some lovely takeaways.
I totally understand how Joan felt whenever she asked/ hoped for the rest to join
& to be thoughtful enough to ask for everyone's opinions for what they wanted to play
And most of the time I didn't help much and just followed the crowd.
PE has always been enjoyable to me provided..
#1 we weren't doing fitness
#2 I was already close with my mates
with these 2 points fulfilled, I would say
I will definitely be HIGH.
Unfortunately, somehow or either,
it seems difficult for everyone to leave the courts happily everytime
we rarely end the session without having any undesirable after effects
maybe this is the reason why I don't really look forward to PE
(if you ever see this, Joan, your question is answered)
it's like having high hopes and the balloon of all your hopes n happy thoughts..
Just go "Pop!" every single time.
There's no point to even hope anymore.
What's the point of gearing myself up with anticipation?
Well, I don't see the point.
I dont want to experience the same dissappointment over & over again every week.

But there's not much of a point brooding over this anymore.
No more the need to worry about such matters anymore.
There goes our last PE session together.
Nevertheless, I had my share of FUNFUNFUN!
I didn't lose out on any:)

After physics lecture, me,tree and Vivien played truth or dare,
using my phone application.
It wa surprisingly pretty amusing!
We continues with the game for the next 2 hours
with the addition of 2 other players Joan n Jojo!
The rest of the 208 clan was left to mug!!muggers!
Haha.it turned out really fun and memorable
& led me wondering
"Why didn't we did this at the earlier part of the year?"
it really could have deepen our understanding of each other so much more
but.it's not like I own a time machine or something.
It's already the end of the 2nd last week for us in this damn school!
But I'm still really glad that we still went on with the game
even though the fun kinda wore out for me after an hour or so.
But it was indeed entertaining an fruitful! Haha.
Those stupid dares:)

Theresa's mood today was pretty good too!
Even though she realised that her *ahem came
we had many fun moments together today:)
happy:D

*P.S.
if we ever play truth or dare
we gotta be daring and stay truthful!
Or else it will really defeat the whole purpose of the game!!
And there won't be any fun in it

however, on the other hand,
( I feel like I'm doing evaluation!! Oh god)
this game may really bond ppl
and also create unwanted discrepancies
to those who take stuff too seriously

but there won't be any problem if it's a game with
sandy,mandy,nana,nono n xm love<3
that,I 'm very sure of;)

I can't believe I'm like doing some essay evaluation thingy.
Haha!

I will never forget the
RAW POTATO NIBBLE!
Cement floor crawling(with just ur hands to help)
Her FIRST Kiss!
"Do you want fries with it?"
the lovely toilet paper tail
"Whistle if you think I'm cute"
bark when you hear lid noises
& hand puppet talking

well..my main goal in life is basically...
To be happy.

2010-09-27T17:13:00.001+08:00

hey all!!

CANT BELIEVE IT!! SANDRALORK &MANDASOH
just came over to my place to surprise me!!!
HAHA! was TRULY surprised and touched
never happened to me before!!
was at a loss of words!!!
loved it ttm!

SO HAPPY!!! hahas
too bad didnt take foto D:
i FORGOT!!
iwanted to take using my fujifilm de :(
ARGH!!! hate myself!

but now they are gone....zsd. nvm... we will.. soon :D

BUT WAS SUPER HAPPY AND SURPRISED!!!

LOVE YOU PEEPS TO BITS!!!

to think that i had a rather sian day before they came!
woohoo.
my day suddenly jus BRIGHTENED ALL UP!!!
ALL THANKS TO THESE TWO BABES!!
somehow you guys can jus make me happy so simply
HEART HEART!

toooodles

2010-09-07T11:00:00.000+08:00

there's just this amicable bond shared among my clique
we can just
say anything
touch on any topics
and some how or other they would have
done the same things
listen to the same music
love the same songs,
the same artistes
watched the same movies,
hear the same stories,
watch the same tv shows/ anime,
well, in short, you can say..
have common topics.

But the best part is that
when we talk about it..
we have that same enthusiasm,
the same passion, fire,
the same feelings
for that subject alone.
Even though we haven't be talking for ages.

Such stuff just creates a warm fuzzy feeling, eh?
i am happy to have friends LIKE YOU!!! <3

2010-09-07T10:48:00.001+08:00

I admitted that i was a bad storyteller yesterday..
And Noren totally agreed!!
And said how i would always bid around the bush :X
HAHA! I just LOVE her honesty!!
i heart honest friends!
so, FRIENDS (only)
PLEASE BE HONEST WITH ME!

meanwhile...
gotta sharpen my expressing skills ;D

2010-09-02T12:59:00.001+08:00

Test test

HELLLLLLOOOADSJODAOD

2010-07-31T19:40:00.000+08:00

HA! HA!
it has been like reeeaaaaallyy long since i touched my blog.
haha. so here i am :)
hoho..
anyway. one of the main purpose i am writing now is cos...
i told my jc friends my blog! hahas! like after 1.5 years..
hahas. i know i know. it's pathetic.hahas.

rachel finally feels much more happier now:)
for the past 1.5 years in my effin school,
it was pure terror. depressing. whatever.
but i am happier now.
i finally feel like much more close.
i finally got those chummy feeling.
at least now i really feel like i'm part of something.
okay.. not only are my comprehension skills lousy,
my expressing is also like shite.

talking about shit...
hahas. i've been newly appointed ASS/ANUS face.
just becasuse i shared some faeces statistics with my friends..
haha!

well..
anyway. i'm glad that i'm finally back on track :)

happy happy rachel yet again! :DD

hope to get more motivated to study with this STAR :) i laminated with the help psm's bro too :) OH! n thanks for the lovely dinner ytd night too! bak kut teh n eggs n spicy hei bi long beans:) wootsie!

gerene working hard! >:P

vicky working hard too :D

haha.. but jojo love falling asleeep.. Zzz..

psm allowed me to draw her old shoes:) hope she can get new shoes sooon :)

muggin hard at nee soon cc :D

psm acting cute for a cam shot.. eew. hahas!

did an experiment with patrick.

PROJECT "HOW FAR CAN PATRICK FLY"

results: patrick can actually fly pretty far considering what a fat starfish he is.

he sure got some stuff! ;D

SPORTS DAY on wednesday:) cancelled all chem tests! woohoo!!!! was so high n happy after we heard the wonderfoooo news!!! headed straight to the canteen for ice cream. was broke that day so joan donated 20 cents to me and jojo kinda treated me to a strawberry popsicle :) although the strawberry popsicle looked like a tongue that got infected. haha!but i still finished it up. we were too tired to study after that.. but we still perservered and did a chem p1 :)

MAROON 5 IS BACK BABAYYES!!!

cant wait for their album to be out on 21st september!!

i am SSOOO getting in.. Along with KATY PERRY's teenage dream..

come to think of it. both album's cover shows a naked woman! OMG!

hahas ;)

2010-06-16T14:48:00.001+08:00

ASHTON KUTCHER!! HOT! WOOO!

2010-03-15T18:49:00.000+08:00

2010-03-15T18:35:00.001+08:00

today is considered a happpy day! hahas.

cos i finally passed my 2.4!!!
are u like happy for mee??
i felt that i should be rewarded with a gd meal
so last minute me n kxm headed down to taka
to eat SEOUL GARDEN!
my one week long craving!
eat until damn full:)
hahas..
den we walked ard vry vry briefly..
n she handed me my lovely lovely bday pressie.
now i wonder how i'm gonna find a present for her bday of the same worth.
cos i really really love her present!!!!!!

anw!
ty all! for encouragin n wishin me luck for my 2.4!

no more 2.4 EVER for rachelkok!
woohoo!!!!!

thankyou very much, YILIN for pacing me thru out
n cos of that got to swallow some flies with me xP
u DONT wanna know MORE!

ahhah!
gdluck to all n MYSELF for blk test nxt weeeek!

2010-01-14T20:58:00.000+08:00

hello. i hate blogger.

uploaded loads of pix esp

n poof it alllll went to waste.

anw

rmb this pencil box?

the truth is that i never knew what does " subtlety is so last century " meant.

of cos i knew what "so last century" meant

but..

anw,

my econs tcher randomly asked me what does that phrase meant

n i said idk.

i felt so stupid.

y do ppl lyk to ask stupid astns tt idk. -.-

or m i really such a captal L loser?

god.

so throw face de can..

piangs.

n i've using it for lyk 4 years alr.

i AM such a loser.

cos i din even bothered to find out wat it actually meant.

seriously man.

n this is not the first tym such incidents happen.

where do this qstns come frm?

REALLY!

where!

gdness.

2010-01-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

3rd day of school already le wors.
today super tiring.
not cos of open hse,
but cos of PE n NETBALL TRG!!
arr! 6 hours of physical in total today!
woohoo!
but at least feel healthier :D yays!
not lyk NOREN who felt lyk she just pumped oil into her body!
hahas!
but anw.
SUNBURNT!
hahas.

everything is fine...
jus that i've got 2 math tests coming up on nxt tues n nxt nxt tues
sucks.
n i haven strt studying!
many hw due nxt mon n tues oso!
chiong rachel chiong!
lalala~

paiseh...
no pix cos LAN DUO!
ee hehe!

2010-01-10T13:38:00.000+08:00

hellooo hellooo
i know it had been really long since i updated the blog..
lazy la.
hahas
anw. today marks the end of my hol.
tomorrow will feel more like a bloody BRAND new year.
sucks.!
i dun wanna get back to sch life!
hols end so fast!
n my time table is not vry gd either.
the degree of suckyness is about the same.
hahas.
but now my earliest time of dismissal is 2.10! woots.
on mondays! :)
but i think i got netball on monday!
totally wasted!
sickening

& 1st chem lecture n gp lesson is on mon.
meaning tmr's the bloody test.
hurray!
i havent studied yet!
4chpts of chem.

it will not b a great first day of sch like in storybks:(
but i shall face it positively and start chionging for the a lvls in 10/11 mths time.
huaiting!

cummon rachel, jus be a nerdy gdy 2 shoes for another year! :D

2009-12-03T14:00:00.000+08:00

Firstly, a few random pix for all to enjoy ;)

hahas. this is how i will look like when i get beaten up :)

its retarded ;D

super long since we met up;) finally met up last thurs which is also my last day of school ;DD yahoo! den headed to town with fish n nana to ion ;)) n look n see stuff. and rant on our sad lives in our own stupid schools :'( tym just FLEW pass. and 6 hours of fun soon came to an end :( we didnt manage to take fotos wif the xmas decos :( but it was really nice to see them n be crazy again ;) trying to plan on a christmas party or something where we can all GO CRAZY!!! cant wait!

some pictures taken when we were eating our choc/ greentea snowice

acting stupid in muji xP

we were ALL invited to "noren's place"

with empty cookie jars ;'D

surprisingly we managed to take quite a few retarded fotos of lina that i couldnt wait to share with all :)

hahas.

in conclusion, it was really an enjoyable time ;)

anw, finished YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL alr! WHOO!

JANG GEUN SUK is reaally cute de lo! hahas. i heart his pout!

lee hong ki tooo!!!!!

ahhhh ~ <3

this part is HEE-LARE-RIOUS!

bcos he is actually a celeb den he thot that when he is in the country side so he can do any stupid thing.

hahas. here he is in a field pluggin in to classical music and relaxingly doing those stupid actions.

totally unaware of his surroundings. den got this old farmer guy waving to him who was actually warning him that a pig is on the loose and was running in his direction. and he thot e farmer was waving to his music. hahas. den.. ltr he realised...hahahahs ;D

OHH! and attn to all, i will be away from 10 -20 of dec so please dun contact me unless its really urgent lyk u got a new bf or smth. hahas. anw u sms me oso u pay...so hahas;) i'll try to post ;) althou lyk bren this kind i cant la. dun even noe her add now :/ hahas. ok. cya, loves ;)

2009-11-16T21:26:00.002+08:00

Super happy and relieved and having mixed feelings now!
I am promoted to J2!
So happy and amazed that my limbs feel weak.
Serious.
Woohoo!
I seriously couldn’t believe I’d make it!
N the first person I called to share the news was KXM love:)
So conclusion is that nightmares DONOT come true:D
Cos my hands feel weak, I cant write.
I only can type:)
Wee~
I wanna go kbox agn to express my happiness:D

2009-11-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

WOOOO!

finally! finally went kbox:D
with xm love :)
yayees!
hahas.

we met early in e morn:)
like 11.
supposed to be 10.30
but she called n said she jus woke up at 10.
but we still made it!
woohoo!
reached amk kbox at 11.15:D
hehe ;X
cos xm wanted ulu ulu wan n tt is e only ulu n convenient branch that i can think of
althou not really enuff tym but it was the cheapest one durin the weekends:)

so sry was rather sian that day wors :(
was super worried for my results that are comin out tmr D:
even had a nightmare that i will b retaining.
hope nightmares dun come true :(
hais..

yupps.we headed to ps after kbox screaming:)
n shopped for scrapbk stuff n foodie:)
foodie consisted of mccafe's oreocheese cake, double choc,
tako balls n carl's jr.'s beef chilli fries which tasted lyk muruku.
if u noe wats tt.
pix were kind of a failure.
cos we only can take close up ones:)
but whatever:)
hahas.
after ps, we went to taka artfren:)
n manage to get OUR bkie :DD
hurrahs!
we spotted alot of nice but uber ex bkies.

heart break we got our 28.80 bucks bkie :)
den xm HAD to leave me for home:(
while, I, continued to go hunting for my file:)

well, used to lonely shoppin alr.
all thx to my vry “busy friends”.
whatever

went over to muji at paragon
still no sign of my file-y :(
so headed down wheelock to chck out some scrapbkie stuff:)
n woohoo!
got sum ex stuff..
but sharin wif xm... so..
heh heh...
*guilty
cos i havent tell her yet <:)
yepps den walked bk to ion
n walked awhile n..
home sweet home:D
saw alot of peeps today
saw 2yj n farah at amk.
1 yj is my pw leader.
but i know he surely wont spot me due to his blur-ity.
so i jus 大摇大摆 de walk in front of him.
he he.
den e other one idk him jus noe is yj de.
den FARAH darling spotted us :)
she was wif KS.
aww..

den saw sum kcp sr. n jr. at ps n orchard.
I assume o lvls is over :)
gd fer them.ahh..
1 yr passed so fast.
I really dun wanna repeat such a yr.
hais... :(
recieved a msg frm my netball cptn sayin tt there will b netball tmr after sch.
wtf.

THAT totally ruined my mood.

n border's selling twilight n new moon paperbk at 12 bucks nia.
so tempted.
stil considerin...
hmm...
oh. n not to mention my one day crash course on korean stuff..
2pm n you're beautiful.
god!xm just couldnt stop yakking!

ok..tts abt it..
wish me gd luck folks:)
startin on you're beautiful alr!
xm must be thrilled ;D
*guffaws

2009-11-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

cant wait to go kbox wif xm tmr
i need to go and vent all my emotions.
be it happiness, tense, accumulated disappointments, etc..
i need it :D
hahas.
n we need to go shop for our scrapbook BOOK.
hahas.althou i am awfully BROKE right now.
i still insist on spending for tmr.
b4 my happiness is once again lost on mon :(
oh wells.
i wanna go now!
so excited.

hee.hee.
today was rather eventful i shld say.
1stly.
i dunthink i will b goin out wif zq tree n mousey tmr
cos..
hai... lazy elaborate
n BECAUSE zq dunno me well..
haven really seen my true colours b4.
she thot me n tree were angry wif her for being fickleminded.
den we oso thot she angry with us.
but it turned out to b a stupid misunderstanding.
hahaha.. had a great laugh.
so dumb can!

den 2ndly,
i was being bullied.
i need to go tok to my sch councillor.
i was bullied my a grp.
unlike the usual pair only.
now it is considered a GRP.
cos its more than 2.
god.
i wld like to thank TREE
for startin all these!
she jus emptied my whole bag n dispersed all my stuff at every table of the classrm!
i am so pathetic.
at least she isnt her usual self and change the sprink n inks of the pens=.=
hahas.
den kj n shawn played along la!
thx loads.
n i didnt noe where my wallet n purse n ezlink went.
n they tricked me!
irritatin!
my 15 bucks worth purse.
actually more than tt.
but e keychain alr cost 15 bucks.
my FMA army :)
my FMA babies.
they stole them away frm me!
n e bullying went on frm after phy to malay lesson n after sch ended.
gdness.

anw.
wanna shop till i drop n really buy stuff one.
n also kbox until SONG!
n laugh.
n get mad.
n what ever!

PW officially ends today!
woohoo!
thnk the gods n goddesses for the lovely rainy overcast weather:)
hahas:)

heart away!~

must take loads of pix tmr :DD

2009-11-07T00:46:00.000+08:00

call me lazy.
wanted to upload sum pix or else it'll once again be WORDS
but hard disk in another room...
he he
anw met up with kxm for 2 days this week.
had so much to catch up n tok about.
felt so nice n super happy to see her agn
at least seeing her helped me get over super dumb irritating stuff *roll eyes*
:D she reminded me n suggested ways to help me overcome some stupid issues
some stupid disappointing effin issues
but i soon got over it :)
ty kxm love:)
we soo needed each other. hee hee

anw had tomyam n toked a whole lot with her on tues.
cos she ended sch at ard 4 n i ended ard 1 plus.
so went home 1st :D
n whoa
i didnt realize it all coming
i had so much to tok!
i we msged each other e whole day on mon!
hahas!
so miss these kinda stuff mans!
n msgs were lyk SU-PA long
keke

den we departed ard 9.
met agn on thurs to watch mj:)
its lyk finally can :)
god.
n she didnt admire mj de lo
hehe.
is cos of ME,
her impt koksq.
THATS WHY:)
n i saw daddy at j8 n we ran away frm him!
hahas. so funny.
den we escaped to bbt b4 muvee :)
i felt cheated lo.
cos i jus had a few big gulps n..
POOF! my peppermint milk tea was lyk POOF!
den had sudden craving for egg tart.
but i decided to restrain myself cos i wanted to try cheesy pasta.
in e end e pasta was kinda sucky.
but watever.
i am RICH!
muahahahah.
but my cash is alr showing signs of extinction.
oh whatever..
no energy to think of such stuff.
mj was quite cool n e dancers were WOO!
but cos muvee was considered quite long
n we gulped down quite a great deal of liquid tt aftnn..
so u noe..
our bladders were bursting 2/3 thru e muvee.
hahahas.den i accidentally banged my big black bag onto a auntie.
felt so bad.n embaressed.hahs

fma rocks!JTTW!got 2 3bucks-worth-"tikamtikam"-fma keychain

oh wed lunched out wif auntie amy :DD n sis after sch n mfm bishan:)

n had a deal with kxm on mon!
hehe.cant wait to start the proj.! :D
*ps. was mj muvee counted as one?

pon sch today cos..aiya lazy explain.
anw i got mc n ponned.
so happy.
but...e equivqlent trade thingy is makin me a lil worried.
my promos.
anw. headed down to tpy at 1
to meet tree n e rest of my yucky grp mates for filming at e sky garden
WOOHOO!
super funny! n fun
was a super quick job too :)

after tt went home, watched 2 eps n prepared to go out agn!
this tym to marina:)
cos going orchestra @ esplanade with aunt
dined n mfm marina-.-
zzz. so sick of e food sia.. twice in a weeek!

2009-10-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

hello and sorry

cos this post will not contain any pictures
this is bcos..
1stly, main purpose for me to login now is to rant
2ndly, i just simply HATE uploading images
cos it is simply time consuming
& lags my com.

but i seriously hope you will hear me out.
considering the fact that it has been long since i seriously posted anything
& the fact that i really need to borrow your ear, in this case ur eyes at least.
& also i believe this is the first time i am REALLY ranting IN DETAIL about my pw/ pw grp.

ok. having mt n pw intensive now.
i personally find this even better then normal lessons.
the word intensive is just to SCARE the hell out of you, just a false alarm thingy.

anw. seriously.
i consider myself as one of those who spend ALOT of effort in the pw.
but the fact that no one even REALLY bothered to help me out really pisses me off.
until i really asked for their help if they really CAN help cos i think i really have too much to do.
SERIOUSLY.
its like ideas are come out by me, most work and drawings are done by me.
but i wld also like to recognise the efforts my leader did put in.
althou he is SUPER DUPER blur.
&i dun really agree to MOST of his ideas.
he really did much work.
the other guy always brags about how much work he does.
when in actual fact, he didnt do much work at all.
all he did was to add on the the loads of crap he ALREADY contributed.
verbal crap.
and me, being the angelic darling,
just laugh it all off. but u know,
i am a devil deep in.
the last 2 members, ironically are the CLOSEST to me.
n they 2 are sharing only ONE pathetic part n are still complaining AND are still not really DONE with it.
CRY OUT LOUD!
2 persons do 1 part.
me, 1 person doing 3 parts n a vry vry mjor part.
see the blardy contrast?

hence, lil miss rachel kok went ot ask them nicely(with my sweet lil approachable smile)
for help. n they jus kinda ignored me.not exactly ignore but try to not ans me.
so i repeated. n THAT one who did THE LEAST,
who "hmm"-ed all thru the year,
who never give ANY comments or ideas or any BLOODY SHIT ,
jus say u cut down the words den i check thru agn.
n for ur effin info, whenever SHE check thru, nothin is being edited.bloody NOTHING.
at least the other close member of mine contributes to the printing, helps me out(REALLY HELP)

thank you for listenin, or rather reading this. :)
really appreciate it.

bye.
while i get back to my lovely pw convo *fake smile

2009-10-20T12:37:00.002+08:00

half an hour passed nia

2009-10-20T12:29:00.002+08:00

SUPER BORED

nth to do online

2009-10-20T12:18:00.000+08:00

hello people!!!

next to san love now.
attendin her lecture wif her:D

her LT is so much better then yj's
lyk so much better can.
zsd

hahas
so fun:)

no pix now
never bring ext memory :X