When rachel was still skinny and very young.

Even before starting school,

she was being looked after by her Godma.

Her cousin was in primary school then.

So whenever her cousin goes downstairs to wait for her school bus, 

rachel and her Godma will accompany her to wait together.

But before heading to the waiting point,

sometimes they will stop by a mama shop.

There were times when her cousin bought this particular snack

which rachel envied and thought to herself,

"When i grow up, and i have money, i'll buy a lot of this!" and smiled to herself.

After many many years, rachel grew from skinny to plump to fat to VERY fat.

From time to time she have thought about that particular snack that she hoped for.

Unfortunately, there are many things that fades away with time

& she thought that this snack was one of them.

BUT!

rachel FINALLY found it in some condo vending machine!

She finally got to taste the long forgotten snack in her favourite flavour too! :)

Conclusion:

 I didn't like it as much as i thought i would.

It became too sweet for me.

I guess i'm too old for such sweet stuff alr.

Well, people do change over time :/

But nevertheless i'm VERY VERYglad i found it.

very nostalgic.

you know, that kinda satisfaction of discovering something that you thought was lost forever :)

it was fun:)

It was the blood rush..

Sorry for the sudden temper boom.

I gotta learn to love what i have right now :')

My Itinary for Tomorrow.

8:30am: wakey
8:30-9.20am: sweep/ magic mop floor
9.20-10: sew top plus decide on what to wear
10-11: settle SIM/ UOL registration thingy :SS
11-12.30pm: prepare n eat lunch plus tv :)
12.30-1.45pm: bathe n prepare to go out
1:45-9pm: Have FUN n catch up with the gurls

Hoping all goes well! :)

what is wrong with me?

everyone's talking about their roomie.
pictures of their hall.
"oh, i'm staying over in school tonight. sorry."

God damn it!
So this is what i lose out cos of my fucking grades.
and why i'm fucking lonely these few days?
cos i fucking dont have a roomie?!

it's fine really.
i'm jus seeing green.
& probably..
a little red too.
WOW. BE MERRY.
cos those are the colours of fucking christmas.

is there anyone else in this world who cant seem to let things go too?
why do i have to have hands that grip so tightly on things?

can't help but wonder..

will anyone ever see through me and tell me...

Lately, I've been having funny mood swings.
Feeling all angsty,happy,sad then excited, disappointed &etc
All together.
Which sucks.
Idk. maybe cos i was bored and starting thinking and hoping for things that
APPARENTLY are a little hard to achieve.although i dunno why.
some crazy messed up bitch.
 
Lately,it's been hard to get tired.
although i know soon i'll be wanting to hit my pillow asap like before.
and it's also cos i'm home with hardly anything to do.

Watched Sex and the City today.
& actually it was pretty good.
the type of thing i was looking for.
friendshipppy with lovie n hot sex.
hahaHa. actually just the friendshippy n lovie parts.

it kept me thinking.
"will i ever have these kinda companionship ever?
cos seriously.it's one of the things that i really need.
A .. LOT.
it's like they are always there for each other n telepathic n understand one another SO WELL.
is it even realistic?
i might even start watching sex n the city from scratch ALREADY. god.
*p.s. noren.
if u wanna watch movies.try this.

Sidetrack:

If only i've got a fairy godmother who can at least grant me 3 wishes.
I would wish that she can give me a friend/partner who will always be there when i need him and who understands me thoroughly.

Secondly, i would wish that i can immediately shrink to a healthy weight.
Which is SUPER difficult to achieve. BUT I must say it's achievable but hard. BUT I CAN n I MUST!

& thirdly, wish that i have better luck. just a teeny bit better than now. cos everytime i say smth or hope not to get smth, I will end up getting the BAD thing. it's like everything i say or think is jinxed. n idk why.

can't wait for valentine's next year.
wanna get all LOVED UP.
by.
THE VOW.
go watch the trailer peeps.
its all sweet n love n tears. <3
all that i want NOW.

but neverminds.
i can wait for a few weeks more for my
KATY n BARNEY
in SMURFS !!

so. i'm gonna get all SMURFED  UP
before LOVEing UP.
ok. what the heck.

gonna start gathering my barney-lovin' sisters
& single ladies to make them promise to watch these 2 movies
with ME!
all though they most prob will break those promises..
but..
still..
all i can do is
H.O.P.E.

:')

Yesterday was pretty amazing :)
I managed to cross out some things that i've wanted to be done for quite some time.

Took half day to do some shopping even though i was sick :(
My main objective of the day: To hunt for the zara dress in my size.



Met up with mandy love at tpy and headed to taka for lunch.
Our lunch was also under my to-do list.
We bloody lunched at crystal jade.
Satisfying, yo.
My lovely congee <3

Second thing that i achieved was to try Starbuck's Soy Strawberries and Cream.
Which I tried one mouth and had to surrender it to the security guard guarding Zara at Liat Towers.
But cos i was too keen to hunt for my dress and letting the drink melt on its own also makes it easier for me to consume, i handed him the drinks willingly.

Ah no came along at around 4.30 (pretty on time, as always) and shocked us at Zara. In the end mandy was the one who managed to make purchases in most of the shops we enter -.-
Poor me!
Went to all 3 branches on orchard road and couldn't even find it,
not even one that is NOT even my size.

Craved for smth savoury and POP!
We were at ion's basement feasting on FREE 4 FINGERS CHICKEN WINGS!
Woots! mandy's treat.
I'll treat u guys smth nxt time too. SOON!
I cant help but mention we used up all my tissue paper when i was having the damned FLU!
haha! but it was alright:)

anw, after that we all agreed to head to 313 :)
(the Zara where i spotted and tried the dress)
AND I FOUND IT!

ah no said it was cute!
so i decided to grab it w/o any hesitation.
considering me being so eager and hunting it down on such a hungry manner the whole afternoon. Haha!

after grabbing the dress, i had to leave for bishan to meet my parents..
although i was really reluctant to leave.
i've gotta learn to exercise self control n discipline.
no more excuses or lies!
well.
the thing was when i reached bishan.
THEY JUST LEFT WOODLANDS  and there was a friggin JAM!
But it was okay.
I managed to pass the time in watsons:)

Hope me n my darlings can go USS by next week!!!
and that we'll meet up again on one of the days of this week to do MORE SHOPPING BABAYS!
& please let me satisfy my pepper crabbie craving soon!

Love u much.

Looking forward to watching HP7  part 2 :)

After a Sinful meal

Since when did eating became a Sin?
& why?

Just finished a sinful yet satisfying lunch.

KFC's Transformers Boxmaster Meal.

It was BOOMZ-POW!!

But. Sinful.

Not to forget, every meal comes with a container of whipped potato

& a drink - Root Beer I CHOOSE YOU!

CBS3 hopped over to my workstation while i was feasting away

And we spent a couple of minutes discussing about how tasty it is.

According to CBS3, Root Beer is a must for him in every western meal.

Only with the combination of Root Beer will it satisfy his tummy fully :)

Cute.

Will I end up looking like CBS3 in the near future?

No way, I should start my veggie-only diet again. SOON.

Still, I've Sinned.

cutesy, eh?

heh heh.

Hope your friday is good ;)

Laugh ;D

Let this brighten up your day :)

Glad that it's raining out there :) hees.

oh..

AND I DEFINITELY WANT HYUN BIN!

 OMGOMG! LOVE HIM TTM!

OMG!
nana reminded me today that..
my birthday is like COMING!
haha..

well.. i love mango/ strawberry cakeys!
i want a burberry wallet xP
i want SECRET GARDEN OST !! woots!
i want GMART stationeries!!
i want new shoes/wedges!
i want cotton on lanterns! but dunno where to hang :/
i want THICKERS!! (stickers that are thick!)
i want sleeping arrangements(bookie ;))
i want ikea photo/curtain clipppers
i want so many albums
i want so many things but i have so little money.

but for my birthday,
i don't need all of the above.
i want fun, joy and laughter.
and the great company of my LOVED friends.
The assurance that my friends really do appreciate me.
And that's enough alr:)

okay
i'm glad people rarely comes to my blog :)

I guess i really really need to get new shoes alr, nana.
my shoes are spoiled.
i just bought it like a month ago?
sigh.
today is like a partially unlucky day.
i ordered ban mian and the person gave me U-mian:/

Oh mee god!!


Can’t wait for the outing this coming thurs with my beloved porky babes;D

Like super egg-cited.

And idk why.

I was about to shut my eyes and be transported to lalaland when noren love texted me that porkies are having a conference online.

So I fought to stay awake and went online thru my iphone(which explains why I keep logging out)

The rough plan is that I will work half day this thurs (esp for my dearies)

& we will then lunch at tom yam (woots) with our favourite fried egg:)

*nana: rmb to order the $4.50, larger bowl one:D

After that we will then head down to ikea on Alexander rd to shop n stuff:)

Come to think of it, never really shopped at ikea with my porkies before.

After that I’ll be bringing them to a near by eating place to chill.

Cheap and good drinks & desserts!

We’ll probably then meet up with mandy after her work to catch, drum rolls please,

No Strings Attached! Hoohoo!



JTTW. If there’s time(quite impossible)

We can shop before meeting her lorxx..



Nana: I want heels/ wedges, babe!

Porkies: When will be our heels day btw?

Yet chingu: I feel like going back to eat at Liang Court sia… hahas.



Sin of the day: bought a $19 O’neill tote bag. Tempted my ZOE laaa! Piangs.

But kinda likey sia:) Is smth I will use anw ;D

I want to do things my own pace.
I am not a machine or a robot
whereby you guys can use a remote to control.
No, i'm uncontrollable.

no more tears, really?

Only xinmin and sandy know about this.

Which is really retarded. 

Have you ever seen/ used this shampoo?

Well if you haven't, do you notice the "no more tears"?

Well, it failed on me.

Tears were bursting out of me when i was bathing that day.

but i gotta be fair and say,

it wasn't because the shampoo got into my eyes.

it was because of some other non-related event.

i so wanna do something to my hair and give it an edge.
New start.
New attitude.

Chasing.

Do you think that it is sad that you cannot really pursue your dreams?
Bcos it has not very good prospects.

Am at the crossroad of pursuing my passion, or to do something practical.

Zoe, i really lack courage and confidence.
i really dont have the courage to pursue my dream

like they said, i would really want to move on and no look back and regret.
But i don't have the courage and confidence to say that i wont regret.

Well, i've got nothing to say.
Everyone's telling me to move on
i want to.

But they are pulling me back.


Have you ever been so lost
Known the way and still so lost
Another night waiting for someone to take me home
Have you ever been so lost

Is there a light
Is there a light
At the end of the road
I’m pushing everyone away
‘Cause I can’t feel this anymore
Can’t feel this anymore

DID i know the way? DO i know the way? WILL i know?


Maybe the reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

When will i know? Which is the perfect road? 
i need clearer signs :(