oh..

AND I DEFINITELY WANT HYUN BIN!

 OMGOMG! LOVE HIM TTM!

OMG!
nana reminded me today that..
my birthday is like COMING!
haha..

well.. i love mango/ strawberry cakeys!
i want a burberry wallet xP
i want SECRET GARDEN OST !! woots!
i want GMART stationeries!!
i want new shoes/wedges!
i want cotton on lanterns! but dunno where to hang :/
i want THICKERS!! (stickers that are thick!)
i want sleeping arrangements(bookie ;))
i want ikea photo/curtain clipppers
i want so many albums
i want so many things but i have so little money.

but for my birthday,
i don't need all of the above.
i want fun, joy and laughter.
and the great company of my LOVED friends.
The assurance that my friends really do appreciate me.
And that's enough alr:)

okay
i'm glad people rarely comes to my blog :)

I guess i really really need to get new shoes alr, nana.
my shoes are spoiled.
i just bought it like a month ago?
sigh.
today is like a partially unlucky day.
i ordered ban mian and the person gave me U-mian:/

Oh mee god!!


Can’t wait for the outing this coming thurs with my beloved porky babes;D

Like super egg-cited.

And idk why.

I was about to shut my eyes and be transported to lalaland when noren love texted me that porkies are having a conference online.

So I fought to stay awake and went online thru my iphone(which explains why I keep logging out)

The rough plan is that I will work half day this thurs (esp for my dearies)

& we will then lunch at tom yam (woots) with our favourite fried egg:)

*nana: rmb to order the $4.50, larger bowl one:D

After that we will then head down to ikea on Alexander rd to shop n stuff:)

Come to think of it, never really shopped at ikea with my porkies before.

After that I’ll be bringing them to a near by eating place to chill.

Cheap and good drinks & desserts!

We’ll probably then meet up with mandy after her work to catch, drum rolls please,

No Strings Attached! Hoohoo!



JTTW. If there’s time(quite impossible)

We can shop before meeting her lorxx..



Nana: I want heels/ wedges, babe!

Porkies: When will be our heels day btw?

Yet chingu: I feel like going back to eat at Liang Court sia… hahas.



Sin of the day: bought a $19 O’neill tote bag. Tempted my ZOE laaa! Piangs.

But kinda likey sia:) Is smth I will use anw ;D

I want to do things my own pace.
I am not a machine or a robot
whereby you guys can use a remote to control.
No, i'm uncontrollable.

no more tears, really?

Only xinmin and sandy know about this.

Which is really retarded. 

Have you ever seen/ used this shampoo?

Well if you haven't, do you notice the "no more tears"?

Well, it failed on me.

Tears were bursting out of me when i was bathing that day.

but i gotta be fair and say,

it wasn't because the shampoo got into my eyes.

it was because of some other non-related event.

i so wanna do something to my hair and give it an edge.
New start.
New attitude.

Chasing.

Do you think that it is sad that you cannot really pursue your dreams?
Bcos it has not very good prospects.

Am at the crossroad of pursuing my passion, or to do something practical.

Zoe, i really lack courage and confidence.
i really dont have the courage to pursue my dream

like they said, i would really want to move on and no look back and regret.
But i don't have the courage and confidence to say that i wont regret.

Well, i've got nothing to say.
Everyone's telling me to move on
i want to.

But they are pulling me back.


Have you ever been so lost
Known the way and still so lost
Another night waiting for someone to take me home
Have you ever been so lost

Is there a light
Is there a light
At the end of the road
I’m pushing everyone away
‘Cause I can’t feel this anymore
Can’t feel this anymore

DID i know the way? DO i know the way? WILL i know?


Maybe the reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

When will i know? Which is the perfect road? 
i need clearer signs :( 

Hoping.

I really really really REALLY Really reallY rEally ReAlLy rEaLlY really really reeeaaaaalllllllyyy realllly reallllllllyyyyy REALLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYY really really realllllyyy really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really REALLY hope that i can get into a decent course in NUS. Hope the gods above can see the effort i put in over here( the many 'really's)yupps. really do wanna move on and pursue a degree. please pleeeease.

why?

Life is unfair isn't it?

Why is it that some people just have better luck than you do?
Why do people have the right to show their temper, their feeling when other can't?
Why some people can just say what they want to say so easily and freely while others
have to keep it deep inside them and let it cut their wounds ever so deeply?
Will the wound ever heal?
Will the struggle ever end?
Will my tears ever stop?

When will I ever get the courage to stand up?
I did try, but i just ended falling back down.
Crushed even further, even more tormenting.
I should stand up again and never give up, is it?
is it right?
cos it feels as if I've been trained from young to just absorb and accept all of your says and beliefs.

When can I learn to grow up and be independent?
Away from all these noise.

Seriously.
Sometimes it's not I don't wanna be high etc
It's just so difficult to achieve that when I'm with you.
No matter what people do to try, you will still find fault in it.
When will you learn to trust the people around you?
Even if we really care.
Why can't you learn to accept certain minor things.
Aren't we supposed to?
Cos.. Not everyone is perfect.


It's tiring.
When will it ever stop?
When will you stop thinking too much?
Will this ever end?

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!! - I'm still a kid

We were having out last PE lesson today
& yet most of the 208 girls,
didn't seem to cherish the little time we've got left..
together.
Most of them chose to be caught up in their own lil worlds
& refusing to give in and make this lesson a memorable one.

I was pretty tired of their ability to be able to
get soo stuck to the benches and spewing lame excuses.
So I went on having fun without them.
Played my heart out with Zhiqian, Yi Lin, Joan, Vivien and
the unspeakable M.
It is the least bit I could do
to ensure that this session won't get wasted
and that there will still be some lovely takeaways.
I totally understand how Joan felt whenever she asked/ hoped for the rest to join
& to be thoughtful enough to ask for everyone's opinions for what they wanted to play
And most of the time I didn't help much and just followed the crowd.
PE has always been enjoyable to me provided..
#1 we weren't doing fitness
#2 I was already close with my mates
with these 2 points fulfilled, I would say
I will definitely be HIGH.
Unfortunately, somehow or either,
it seems difficult for everyone to leave the courts happily everytime
we rarely end the session without having any undesirable after effects
maybe this is the reason why I don't really look forward to PE
(if you ever see this, Joan, your question is answered)
it's like having high hopes and the balloon of all your hopes n happy thoughts..
Just go "Pop!" every single time.
There's no point to even hope anymore.
What's the point of gearing myself up with anticipation?
Well, I don't see the point.
I dont want to experience the same dissappointment over & over again every week.

But there's not much of a point brooding over this anymore.
No more the need to worry about such matters anymore.
There goes our last PE session together.
Nevertheless, I had my share of FUNFUNFUN!
I didn't lose out on any:)

After physics lecture, me,tree and Vivien played truth or dare,
using my phone application.
It wa surprisingly pretty amusing!
We continues with the game for the next 2 hours
with the addition of 2 other players Joan n Jojo!
The rest of the 208 clan was left to mug!!muggers!
Haha.it turned out really fun and memorable
& led me wondering
"Why didn't we did this at the earlier part of the year?"
it really could have deepen our understanding of each other so much more
but.it's not like I own a time machine or something.
It's already the end of the 2nd last week for us in this damn school!
But I'm still really glad that we still went on with the game
even though the fun kinda wore out for me after an hour or so.
But it was indeed entertaining an fruitful! Haha.
Those stupid dares:)

Theresa's mood today was pretty good too!
Even though she realised that her *ahem came
we had many fun moments together today:)
happy:D

*P.S.
if we ever play truth or dare
we gotta be daring and stay truthful!
Or else it will really defeat the whole purpose of the game!!
And there won't be any fun in it

however, on the other hand,
( I feel like I'm doing evaluation!! Oh god)
this game may really bond ppl
and also create unwanted discrepancies
to those who take stuff too seriously

but there won't be any problem if it's a game with
sandy,mandy,nana,nono n xm love<3
that,I 'm very sure of;)

I can't believe I'm like doing some essay evaluation thingy.
Haha!

I will never forget the
RAW POTATO NIBBLE!
Cement floor crawling(with just ur hands to help)
Her FIRST Kiss!
"Do you want fries with it?"
the lovely toilet paper tail
"Whistle if you think I'm cute"
bark when you hear lid noises
& hand puppet talking




well..my main goal in life is basically...
To be happy.

hey all!!

CANT BELIEVE IT!! SANDRALORK &MANDASOH
just came over to my place to surprise me!!!
HAHA! was TRULY surprised and touched
never happened to me before!!
was at a loss of words!!!
loved it ttm!

SO HAPPY!!! hahas
too bad didnt take foto D:
i FORGOT!!
iwanted to take using my fujifilm de :(
ARGH!!! hate myself!

but now they are gone....zsd. nvm... we will.. soon :D

BUT WAS SUPER HAPPY AND SURPRISED!!!


LOVE YOU PEEPS TO BITS!!!

to think that i had a rather sian day before they came!
woohoo.
my day suddenly jus BRIGHTENED ALL UP!!!
ALL THANKS TO THESE TWO BABES!!
somehow you guys can jus make me happy so simply
HEART HEART!


toooodles

there's just this amicable bond shared among my clique
we can just
say anything
touch on any topics
and some how or other they would have
done the same things
listen to the same music
love the same songs,
the same artistes
watched the same movies,
hear the same stories,
watch the same tv shows/ anime,
well, in short, you can say..
have common topics.

But the best part is that
when we talk about it..
we have that same enthusiasm,
the same passion, fire,
the same feelings
for that subject alone.
Even though we haven't be talking for ages.

Such stuff just creates a warm fuzzy feeling, eh?
i am happy to have friends LIKE YOU!!! <3

I admitted that i was a bad storyteller yesterday..
And Noren totally agreed!!
And said how i would always bid around the bush :X
HAHA! I just LOVE her honesty!!
i heart honest friends!
so, FRIENDS (only)
PLEASE BE HONEST WITH ME!

meanwhile...
gotta sharpen my expressing skills ;D

Test test

HELLLLLLOOOADSJODAOD

HA! HA!
it has been like reeeaaaaallyy long since i touched my blog.
haha. so here i am :)
hoho..
anyway. one of the main purpose i am writing now is cos...
i told my jc friends my blog! hahas! like after 1.5 years..
hahas. i know i know. it's pathetic.hahas.

rachel finally feels much more happier now:)
for the past 1.5 years in my effin school,
it was pure terror. depressing. whatever.
but i am happier now.
i finally feel like much more close.
i finally got those chummy feeling.
at least now i really feel like i'm part of something.
okay.. not only are my comprehension skills lousy,
my expressing is also like shite.

talking about shit...
hahas. i've been newly appointed ASS/ANUS face.
just becasuse i shared some faeces statistics with my friends..
haha!

well..
anyway. i'm glad that i'm finally  back on track :)

happy happy rachel yet again! :DD

hope to get more motivated to study with this STAR :) i laminated with the help psm's bro too :) OH! n thanks for the lovely dinner ytd night too! bak kut teh n eggs n spicy hei bi long beans:) wootsie!

 gerene working hard! >:P

vicky working hard too :D

haha.. but jojo love falling asleeep.. Zzz..

psm allowed me to draw her old shoes:) hope she can get new shoes sooon :)

muggin hard at nee soon cc :D

psm acting cute for a cam shot.. eew. hahas!

did an experiment with patrick.

PROJECT "HOW FAR CAN PATRICK FLY"

results: patrick can actually fly pretty far considering what a fat starfish he is.

he sure got some stuff! ;D

SPORTS DAY on wednesday:) cancelled all chem tests! woohoo!!!! was so high n happy after we heard the wonderfoooo news!!! headed straight to the canteen for ice cream. was broke that day so joan donated 20 cents to me and jojo kinda treated me to a strawberry popsicle :) although the strawberry popsicle looked like a tongue that got infected. haha!but i still finished it up. we were too tired to study after that.. but we still perservered and did a chem p1 :)

MAROON 5 IS BACK BABAYYES!!!

cant wait for their album to be out on 21st september!!

i am SSOOO getting in.. Along with KATY PERRY's teenage dream..

come to think of it. both album's cover shows a naked woman! OMG!

hahas ;)

ASHTON KUTCHER!! HOT! WOOO!