New Change.

Specially for the upcoming hols,

Rachel's got new RED tresses ;)

woohoo:)
say 'hi' to them, ya?
hees.

Feeling like a hayley.

Feels like a bomb before explosion.

Next time I'll be braver, 
I'll be my own saviour, 
Standing on my own two feet.





Need to start singing.
Need to start reading between the lines of the songs.
Need to start to be independent. Depend on me and only me alone.
Need to start striving for my future.

Changes.

I know the new year is around the corner,
and it's time for changes.
Changes for the better.

But i just can't help but notice myself changing.
Without myself controlling them at all.
And i have no idea why.

But somehow,
deep down,
i don't think it's for the better..
sigh.

I embrace you, 2012.

Yep.
The new year is coming.
So it's time to change for the better.
& get a new diary.

Got myself a new diary/organiser.
This year, i gotta really make full use of my planner and make sure it does organise my life.
Yes, i've been having/using a planner ever since what? P6?
The year where i tried to set my life straight.

My organisers have played a pretty big part in my life.
They walked with me throughout my life through thick and thin..
You can say they are all my BFFs.
And i had to let them go at the end of the year in search for a brand new one.
i'm sorry about that.
Gotta admit that throughout these years, i have using them for a wrong reason.
I no longer really use them to keep my life in shape
but rather use them to doodle or scribble my current feelings randomly on any page.
Or to jot down or paste things that remind me of special events that happened.

But this coming year.
I gotta make sure i get my life back on track.
Keep Focus.
Prioritise what is more important.
Think about your future.
Think long term.
Fighting.

Really like my new organiser.
Even though it's a little too tiny and pretty costly,
i absolutely LOVE the graphics :)
Artsy-Fartsy ;D

Enjoy :]

This kinda look like lady gaga to me,,, haha.

I ADORE THIS.!

Okay, I know, it has been
A LONG TIME.

But it's either laziness or my life is simply jus not exciting enough. So, sorry folks.hehe. I guess I'm pretty boring.

Anw, this week has been pretty or really exciting I should say? Actually planned to shop at Queensway on monday for a new pair of shoes but I ended up hopping over to Godma's and even stayed over for a night:)

Spent the whole day and night playing Karin's awesome card/board games. Haha. Totally a settler's club over there. Hees.

Was supposed to have class in tues de. But last minute cancelled:) I bet most ppl wouldn't see it as a happy thing cos everyone are hardworking people, except for me.haha.

So had zichar dinner with Godma family n my family:) awesome much. And I probably can follow them to sydney in feb.hopefully I can! So I intend to mug really hard from now on so I won't be missing out much. And must start extreme dieting too!!

Went out yesterday with Godma n karin again. Awesome shopping at orchard;) bought 2 tops from F21.hoho.dinner at watami was fantastic too;) buying much stuff from F21 lately. Not bcos I like it. But cos they are the cheaper substitutes for the clothes that I like. If I've got the money I wldnt hv spent money there at all. Zara is my paradise.

Today,totally look like some fat pregnant woman in the morning. Cos since I will be going home during my 4hours between class break I heck cared. But felt rather no confident de. Sudden outbreak of painful acne, ugly black roots much exposed, fat and fair flabby arms, clipped up fringe and big black tote that when combined together with my brown baggy ragged top make me look friggin pregnant?!? In fact I'm surprised no one offered me a seat on the train. Yes, the damn trains in singapore where everyone snatches the damn seats. SERIOUSLY?! the seats ain't gold-plated or weight-losing.WTS?!

Couldn't stand the way I looked so I took out my shades and hide behind them all the way home.

Headed home today to doll up;) cos will be attending a ballet in the evening right after sch today. The nutcracker. Although I don't like the fact that it is Chinese/Asian- themed.*roll eyes. Hope it'll be awesome enough to make me nt mind the special theme. Zzz. But still exciting:D ;D

So today marks the first time I wear heels to sch. Hees. I was always afraid that people will be like,"WTS, come sch also wear heels..." I mean it's natural,we tend to stereotype these ppl as bitches but.. Sometimes but also rise up to occasion ma hor? Hees. Afterall I dont think I walk awkwardly in heels after much practice thru the sat few months:)

Tomorrow, Godma and family will be coming over fr dinner:) we making sushi:) dad's thinking of getting a Xmas tree from ikea. Can't wait to let the nostalgic scent of pine be immersed into our home again;) hees.

And I wanna do my hair SOON!

Wasn't able to study much and furthermore will be away to THAILAND-BANGKOK in 1&1/2week later? MUG!

Excited for the Bangkok trip much. In fact it doesn't matter where I go,as long as I go on a holiday,I am a happy girl:)
Shopping trip sia. Have been wanting to go Bangkok shopping since a million years ago. Gonna buy buy buy!! Be jealous,bitches.

Even though the timing are always not right.but I shall still make it work out.why didn't all these opportunities came during my 8month long holidays?! I was like friggin stuck in singapore?!?!??!? But still better than not going at all:) 知足.

It's Friday again.

Yup, reporting to you from econs lecture again. Idk why but seriously Katherine always skipping lessons and getting very late for class is getting on my fucking nerves.

I wanna go home:(

Last Wednesday with one lecture.

And rkry decided to pon school today.

It was Friday.

Now, I'm sitting alone in the middle of Econs lecture blogging. Yep. I even wanted to pon this class.

Firstly: Having a churning tummy since yesterday night and went to the ladies thrice throughout the day. This factor caused me to feel even more reluctant to go for classes today.

Secondly: Katherine pon class again :( And hence Rachel is being a loner in the LT. She needed to go collect her SNSD concert tix. Oh bother.

Thirdly: Mr Ting is only going through tutorials. Which is honestly a waste of time for me. Cos I didn't do it(yes,slap me) and now,half an hour left and I see that he would not be touching theory at all. I SHOULD REALLY HAVE RAN HOME! The 2 persons beside me already left during the break. I'm still persevering(?) down here.

Sigh. The pathetic life of a lazy girl.

Anyway, had lunch at Everything With Fries @ Holland V with xm love;) the food was not totally awesome. But still not bad. Very filling. Couldn't finish the fries. I think the desserts are more tempting. But didn't get to try.cos main entree was alr not vry cheap so decided to forgo.

Sat throughout the whole 3 hours and thank god. He went through topic 7 theory;)

RUNNING MAN~

Sorry peeps,

But Running Man is totally turning me into an OTAKU!!
Totally glued to it.



OMG. Whole day thinking about running man and just want to watch it whole day.
Everything Running Man!



Especially HEART KWANGSOO AND GARY <3
& JaeSuk too^^
Monday couple~

Gonna Get Over You - Sara Bareilles


Goodbye
Should be sayin' that to you by now, shouldn't I?
Layin' down the law that I live by,
Though maybe next time

I've got a thick tongue,
Brimming with the words that go unsung
Simmer then the burn for a someone,
A wrong one

And I tell myself to let the story end,
My heart will rest in someone else's hand
My 'why not me?' philosophy began,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

Maybe is a vicious little word that can slay me
Keep me when I'm hurting and make me,
Hang from your hands

Well, no more,
I won't beg to buy a shot at your back door
If I make it at the thought of you, what for?
It's not me anymore

And I'm not the girl that I intend to be,
I dare you darling, just you wait and see
But this time not for you but just for me,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

I stand corrected,
I know too well
And now it's much too late for you for me as far as I can tell,
Oh I say, oh yeah, yeah, yeah

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday 

Goodbye
Should be sayin' that to you by now, shouldn't I?
Layin' down the law that I live by,
Though maybe next time

I've got a thick tongue,
Brimming with the words that go unsung
Simmer then the burn for a someone,
A wrong one

And I tell myself to let the story end,
My heart will rest in someone else's hand
My 'why not me?' philosophy began,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

Maybe is a vicious little word that can slay me
Keep me when I'm hurting and make me,
Hang from your hands

Well, no more,
I won't beg to buy a shot at your back door
If I make it at the thought of you, what for?
It's not me anymore

And I'm not the girl that I intend to be,
I dare you darling, just you wait and see
But this time not for you but just for me,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

I stand corrected,
I know too well
And now it's much too late for you for me as far as I can tell,
Oh I say, oh yeah, yeah, yeah

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday 

Breakeven - The Script

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got tI'me while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Math Poems. LOL.

He’s teaching her arithmetic,
Because it is his mission.
He kissed her once, he kissed her twice
and said, “Now, that’s addition.”

As he added smack by smack
In silent satisfaction,
She sweetly gave the kisses back
and said, “Now, that’s subtraction.”

Then he kissed her, she kissed him,
Without an explanation,
And both together smiled and said,
“Now, that’s multiplication.”

Then Dad appeared upon the scene and
Made a quick decision.
He kicked the boy out of the house
And said, “Now, that’s division!”

Something For Lina LOVE

WHAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING INSTEAD:

AMEND STEP 6 BY ADDING A "DON'T" AT THE FRONT.

A mixed up, jumbled up mess

Was out practically the whole day yesterday.

10.30 am: Brunch with Xinmin and Na.
3.30pm: Den school.
7.30pm: Dinner with the Porks.
11.20pm: Home at last.

Surprisingly, the best part of the day was at school.
Had some small talk with KatKat.(Kit Kat)

Was like talking about friendship relationship stuff and i just couldn't help but agree more.

She did mention that sometimes,
when you start getting closer to someone(friend),
you just can't help but feel possessive over him/her.
That's just because you really care for what you share.
But many a times, it just seems like a one-sided thing.
Cos you will just end up expecting that person to this or that.
Treasure that relationship you THOUGHT you have,
when actually you don't.
(Yup! 2-faced Deep-Shits. Cos to me,
HONESTY AMONG TRUE CLOSE BUDS,IS THE BEST POLICY. 
even if it's not what i wish to hear. )
And it's not exactly their fault to be insensitive or careless.
It's your fault for just putting too high hopes on them.

She did also mention that, yes, it's just friendship only.
But YOU JUST CAN'T HELP IT.
And you just can't help but fell hurt in the end.

So her conclusion was to not have too close friends
in order to protect herself from all the one-sided hurt.
it's practically a win-lose situation where the other party takes it all
while you on the other hand loses every. single. thing.
NO POINT.

But the ultimate question is..
Is it worth the pain?
Are they worth it?


When you start thinking about it,
from all the past experimenting,
they usually, most of the time, don't deserve all these sacrifices.

cos i happen to read this somewhere:

If a person wants to be a part of your life, they will make an obvious effort to do so. Don't bother reserving a space in your heart for people who do not make an effort to stay.

So in reply to this quote,
I will not make the effort to those who i made an effort to,
but did not do the same in return.
I've got to learn to love myself more.
Cos some people just wouldn't appreciate those unspoken gestures.
And they would never do so much for you.
& they'll just never understand.
i should just invest THAT wasted effort on someone else,
somebody else whom i believe would value it.


So from now on guys,
I'm just gonna simply ask you for the sake of politeness.
I'll not harbour any hope for anything else MORE than that.
Don't feel pressured or obliged to do so without even WANTING to.
It's your life, your choice.
and mine.




It's funny why i am so vexed by all these kinda chummy issues when others my age are fussing over their love lives.

PORKIES, i'm losing you :'(

It's been slightly more than a week since i last blogged.
And i blog-hopped to sandy,nana and ah no's blogs.

Just reading their posts make me miss them all a lot.
& it made me realised it's been MONTHS since we hung out TOGETHER.
all 5 of us.
& it made me really sad.

we're all busy with our own lives and just can't find a time whr we can all go mad like we used to before.
Where are the lost laughs?
in fact,
Where have we all gotten to?

i really REALLY miss the times man!
When can we finally meet up..
AND TALK
AND LAUGH
AND GO CRAZY
AND TAKE THOSE SILLY PICTURES

We gotta find time and hang out FUCKING soon! :(



Can you believe it?
That was what i believe as the last meet up we had tgt.
with all 5 of us.
and that's all!
& sandy didn't even stayed with us through out :/



take it, take it all, take all that i have
i'd give it all away just to get you back
fake it, fake it, i'll take what i can get
knocking so loud can you hear me yet?

There's always a FIRST to everything.

Today is friday.

& my timetable is somewhat.. sucky.
on fridays.
So it's not TGIF for me.
It's more of like WGIFA.
(Why,God,It's Friday Already!?)

O..K.
Let me tell you why.
On fridays,
I have to wake up at 6.
& reach school by 8.30am.
This class ends at 11.30am.
BUT next class starts at 15.30.
HOO-HAA.
dunno how to spend that 4hours.

So today,
i intended to stay in sch for THAT 4 hours
BUT i intended not to.
cos i nearly fell asleep during my morning class
& i needed to hype up myself.
OR the aftnn class will be another HELL.

So i hopped on the bus to west mall.
AND i finally got to have lunch alone :D
I know, to many of  you out there,
lunching alone is like for loners and outcasts or whatever.
But to me,
it's kinda enjoyable?
& it made me feel independent.
After experiencing many disappointments when it comes to finding people to simply hang out with,
it made me wanna learn how to not rely on people.
if i can do it alone, why not?

& from time to time,
i've actually grown to enjoy n like it :)
It feels challenging in a way and after finally conquering that obstacle,
you just can't help but feel satisfied with yourself :)

ANW,
today i went to eat pastamania's MEATBALLS for lunch.
was craving for that ever since katherine ate it like nxt to me.
Like piping hot, AND NXT TO ME!
So i succumbed to my temptations n had that for pastamania to lunch alone:)
couldn't help but notice a few peeps looking at me eating alone.
HOHO.
I AM BRAVE ;)
& i felt pleased.

After the lunch, i took my back pack n headed to jurong point.
HOOHOO!
n bought the lip stain that i've been wanting for sooo long.
n that eye make up base.
They freaking totalled up to 40+
mad.
but i couldnt get them off my mind so i jus got it.

Next, i wanted to go to the bank to change my addy
but the Q was neverending and i didn't wanna waste my time Q-ing.
So i jus went to get hair removal cream ;)
WHICH YIZHEN & LIYUN tempted me to do it.

i guess lately i've been pretty flamboyant.
haha.
easily influenced by my new friends which is BAD!!
but my leg hair have always been a eye sore so..
i jus spent another 11 bucks.
yep.

BUT THAT TIME WHEN I SKIPPED LECT TO EAT LUNCH N SLACK OUTSIDE WAS BAD!
N I TOTALLY REGRETTED IT.
IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN.
I JUST WASTED 100 BUCKS OF MY PARENTS HARD-EARNED MONEY.
SLAP ME HARDDD!!!!

Anw, i shopped around and found FAB ex necklaces THAT I WANT.
n XM said she's gonna spend 40bucks on me for xmas n i get to choose ANYTHING.
Even drugs or condoms.
okay. i was kidding.

BUT I'VE BEEN SEEING SO MANY AWESOME ACCESSORIES AROUND
I JUST DIDNT KNOW WHICH TO PICK
OR SHOULD I EVEN BUY.

but I SHALL MAKE HER GET ME THOSE FROM DIVA
they got sale too 3 at the price of 2.
So Yup!

Will be seeing her for the second time this week tmr.
Gonna go SIM open house, THEN, movie again..
AND ORCHARD SHOPPING!!
NEW CLOTHES FOR THE SEASON!! HOOT HOOT!!

Headed back to sch for aftnn class and attended lecture alone.
Cos katherine was sick today.
can't help but admit..
it's much better to study w/o her.
sigh.

OH!
n i shaved my legs! (another FIRST)
they are now smooth n bare.
well, at least FOR NOW.
HAHA

PLAN FOR NEXT FRIDAY,
SOLITARY TRIP TO THE MOOOVIESS :D
but if i were to watch friends with benefits alone
i think the ticket person will think i'm sick or horny..
boo:/
But
should i even CARE?!

nice Peanuts?

Today, Daddy fetched me home from school :D
Saving her dear daughter from the evening public transport SQUEEZE xS
On our way back,
he told me he spotted one of his directors sitting in a wet market ,somewhere in the west,
eating peanuts.
With his wife and talking with the shopkeeper.
All these during office hours.


He totally stunned when he saw dad. HAHA.
n dad wanted to ask him, "Why? The peanuts here good ah?" 
But of cos he saved his own ass and just said hi. HAHA.
LOL.


Hope the colour and font size helps :)

A doggy question.

NOREN LPY,

My reliable walking animal DIC.
Please tell me what breed is this cute little fluffy thingy<3?

This is FUNNY.