hello!!!

sigh sigh.1st few days of jc life was like shite.but of cos it got better as the days passed.but still miss kcp AND kcpians alot alot.seriously.its lyk i suddenly fell out of my comfort zone and start havin this nightmare of me getting lost in a maze.i should really learn how to adapt to a new environment more quickly.and of cos make many many new friends.must learn to be independent and more sociable.luckily for me, i got some kcpians at yj.one thing abt yj is that we are alreadyposted to our permanent class on the vry 1st day of sch,regardless of wat subject combi you will choose.well,dere are gd n bad points.

was kinda sian and depressed on the 1st wk.everyone seems to be bz with their own stuff and some IDIOT changed her mind on her bloody route.THAT actually dampened my already damp feelings even further.but hurrays.everything is improving.my OGL say i vry lazy cos i seldom participate.but that wasnt the reason.i felt lost and didnt had the courage to move a single step.it was really difficult.new environment and everything.mis the old days.ididnt mind takin o levels agn cos i had the company of my dear friends and felt comfortable in kcp,my 2nd home.

katy perry's "thinking of you" really described how i was feeling.really suitable.except that the fact that "YOU"was refering to KCP n my DARLS.

Thinking Of You lyrics.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it
I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes
I'd like to stay...


yepps.igh.but i told myself that this is a phase in life and i will encounter more of these kinda situations in the future.learn to live without closed ones and learn to be INDEPENDENT.make new friends,bitch.although i do miss thm alot alot and they always sound so sian in smses.i will jiayous.

another weird thing is that nobody sems to be able to contact sandra lork.she's never online since fri i think.neva turn up in sch.phoone is always off.when call her hse she either slpin or etc.jus cant pick up the phone.really worried.thot she might update her blog.but its still pretty backdated.gosh.man's bdae is in 5 days time and is really looking forward to seeing her and everything.oh my gosh.i wanna tell them EVERYTHING!ANYTHING!LAUGH LOUDLY!TALK ABOUT ANYTHING UNDER OUR FAV SUN!planner misses the agent manys.


SUPER tan now.gosh..eek!i think its the tannest i've ever gotten.got sch uniform today:)althou dunno if its smth i ought to be happy about hahas.112!!!

love kcp forever!

rachelkok<3

*PS. strtin to love arashi.goodness.ARGH!!!help ME!